Luck OR Chances?

When u're left with no choice in life, u HAVE to live with the only choice u have.. It's not about luck or freaking chances.. It's about to keep on surviving.. Sometimes u take chances, and sometimes u provide them.. It's in your hands. So don't freaking blame fate for whatever happens. Don't get this wrong.. Yes, u can't change the things that happened in the past.. but who says u can't try sculpting your future?

I really don't give a damn about the past.. neither of the current situation. Keeping my options opened, is not really an option for me.. It is what u need to do when, having options is not an option anymore.. It's a just a phase in life, but only the lucky ones would have to go thru it :)

.. and for those who are trying to take this as an opp or advantage, well..STOP! what makes u think i would turn back? why did u think i pushed my way out in the first place? don't push your luck.. u might end up crushing your face against the ground, AGAIN.. i will go thru this on my OWN terms.. i wanna move on, so should u.. 

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When you love someone so deeply, they become your life.. It's easy to succumb to overwhelming fears inside.. Blindly I imagined I could keep you under glass.. Now I understand to hold you, I must open my hands and watch you rise..

Spread your wings and prepare to fly.. For you have become a butterfly.. Fly abandonedly into the sun.. If you should return to me.. We truly were meant to be.. So spread your wings and fly, Butterfly..

I have learned that beauty has to flourish in the light.. Wild horses run unbridled, or their spirit dies.. You have given me the courage to be all that I can.. And I truly feel your heart will lead you back to me when you're ready to land..

I can't pretend these tears aren't overflowing steadily.. I can't prevent this hurt from almost overtaking me.. But I will stand and say goodbye.. For you'll never be mine.. Until you know the way it feels to fly..


So flutter through the sky, Butterfly.. Spread your wings and fly, Butterfly..

Whatever u call this phase is..

Kept looking for answers.. Kept searching for reasons.. But the more i tried, the deeper i got into the trance.. every day when i woke up, stared into nothingness, and reality started to kick in, and realized i was falling deeper.

I'm done.. i'll stop looking for answers. i'll stop searching for reasons.. maybe this is just another turning point.. I'm succumbing to circumstances.. It doesn't really matter what awaits me in the future anymore. I'll just go wherever fate and time will take me..

:)

It's been soooo looooong since the last post, I know.. It's not that i dont have stories to tell. It's just i'm trying to make it easy for everybody.. BTW, i've received an email from an old fren asking why i havent updated this personal space for so long.. honestly, i dont really know why.. :)

And as today, it's not that i really have the urge to write.. I'm just letting the old frens know that i'm still here. It's been a good time since the last update.. :)

I'm alive..

hehe.. assalamualaikum.. lamenye x update. bukan malas.. tapi bz.. sobss. baru perasan chatbox kat tepi ni dah expired. huhu.. tp kalau nak re-activate balik pon, mcm la ade org nak chat. ngee..

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Goodbye @15

Yes.. i've come to a long awaited turning point in my life. i've been dying to get this opportunity. After more than 6 years being a moderator on @15, this chance has finally hit me. However, leaving @15 is not something easy for me to do. It has been a part of me throughout the years. Well.. most part of me.. But this is what i have to. I want to.

To those who had helped me thru, a million thanx to all of u. Thank u for sticking around. No words can express how much i appreciate your presences. And to whom i may have hurt along the way, a trillion apologies i seek from u.

Tomorrow, Saturday, 27th November 2010, is going to be the last day i'll be playing the role of a moderator. (and hell i hope there wouldn't be any delay). Hehe.. I just hope tomorrow wont be a long day for me. Amiin..

Hye!!

saje nak bgtau yg saye masih hidup. Saye mcm malas nak wat posting sbb saye x suke template blog saye. kalau anda rajin nak buatkan design utk blog saye, sile la. hikhik

Bosan Dengan AWAK...

utk sape2 yg terase...

awak.. kat sini saye nk bgtau, saye rase awak kadang2 merimaskan fikiran saye la.. owhh.. tapi skarang lebih kerap saye rase.. Sorry la.. saye bukan nak tunjuk ego kat sini... tapi saye dah agak bengang la dgn situasi skarang..

Saye rase saye tak pernah kenal siape awak yang sebenar2nye.. Siape awak eh? Awak cume hidup dalam kesamaran saye.. dalam ape yg saye bayangkan, awak ni lain.. dan saye rase, saye tak nak find out pun pasal diri awak yang sebenar2nye.. Awak buang mase saye la.. Saye bosan la dgn interference awak..

awak.. tolong la keluar dari hidup saye.. ini jalan saye.. saye tak nak awak ade dalam future saye... sorry la kalau awak rase saye kejam sbb tulis camni... tapi awak ni memang x reti give up eh? atau x reti malu?

lagi skali, SORRY.. tapi, secare baik, saye mintak awak tolong la blah..

P/S: Selamat Hari Raye. Maaf Zahir Batin..

My Pretty Babies

Butet tgh tdo..

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