Hari² Seorang Qenari

Luck OR Chances?

2012-01-27T00:09:00.000+08:00

When u're left with no choice in life, u HAVE to live with the only choice u have.. It's not about luck or freaking chances.. It's about to keep on surviving.. Sometimes u take chances, and sometimes u provide them.. It's in your hands. So don't freaking blame fate for whatever happens. Don't get this wrong.. Yes, u can't change the things that happened in the past.. but who says u can't try sculpting your future?

I really don't give a damn about the past.. neither of the current situation. Keeping my options opened, is not really an option for me.. It is what u need to do when, having options is not an option anymore.. It's a just a phase in life, but only the lucky ones would have to go thru it :)

.. and for those who are trying to take this as an opp or advantage, well..STOP! what makes u think i would turn back? why did u think i pushed my way out in the first place? don't push your luck.. u might end up crushing your face against the ground, AGAIN.. i will go thru this on my OWN terms.. i wanna move on, so should u..

...

2012-01-26T23:33:00.001+08:00

When you love someone so deeply, they become your life.. It's easy to succumb to overwhelming fears inside.. Blindly I imagined I could keep you under glass.. Now I understand to hold you, I must open my hands and watch you rise..

Spread your wings and prepare to fly.. For you have become a butterfly.. Fly abandonedly into the sun.. If you should return to me.. We truly were meant to be.. So spread your wings and fly, Butterfly..

I have learned that beauty has to flourish in the light.. Wild horses run unbridled, or their spirit dies.. You have given me the courage to be all that I can.. And I truly feel your heart will lead you back to me when you're ready to land..

I can't pretend these tears aren't overflowing steadily.. I can't prevent this hurt from almost overtaking me.. But I will stand and say goodbye.. For you'll never be mine.. Until you know the way it feels to fly..

So flutter through the sky, Butterfly.. Spread your wings and fly, Butterfly..

Whatever u call this phase is..

2012-01-17T02:37:00.000+08:00

Kept looking for answers.. Kept searching for reasons.. But the more i tried, the deeper i got into the trance.. every day when i woke up, stared into nothingness, and reality started to kick in, and realized i was falling deeper.

I'm done.. i'll stop looking for answers. i'll stop searching for reasons.. maybe this is just another turning point.. I'm succumbing to circumstances.. It doesn't really matter what awaits me in the future anymore. I'll just go wherever fate and time will take me..

:)

2012-01-13T17:43:00.000+08:00

It's been soooo looooong since the last post, I know.. It's not that i dont have stories to tell. It's just i'm trying to make it easy for everybody.. BTW, i've received an email from an old fren asking why i havent updated this personal space for so long.. honestly, i dont really know why.. :)

And as today, it's not that i really have the urge to write.. I'm just letting the old frens know that i'm still here. It's been a good time since the last update.. :)

I'm alive..

2011-04-10T18:31:00.000+08:00

hehe.. assalamualaikum.. lamenye x update. bukan malas.. tapi bz.. sobss. baru perasan chatbox kat tepi ni dah expired. huhu.. tp kalau nak re-activate balik pon, mcm la ade org nak chat. ngee..

USED BLACKBERRY BOLD 9000 FOR SALE

2010-12-12T23:13:00.000+08:00

FOR SALE!
USED BLACKBERRY BOLD 9000 (original Maxis set).

- RM550 (NEGOTIABLE)
- comes with maroon matte casing
- OS upgraded (same as BOLD 9700)
- very good working condition.
- original charger

if interested, email me at em3lia@gmail.com

Goodbye @15

2010-11-26T12:04:00.001+08:00

Yes.. i've come to a long awaited turning point in my life. i've been dying to get this opportunity. After more than 6 years being a moderator on @15, this chance has finally hit me. However, leaving @15 is not something easy for me to do. It has been a part of me throughout the years. Well.. most part of me.. But this is what i have to. I want to.

To those who had helped me thru, a million thanx to all of u. Thank u for sticking around. No words can express how much i appreciate your presences. And to whom i may have hurt along the way, a trillion apologies i seek from u.

Tomorrow, Saturday, 27th November 2010, is going to be the last day i'll be playing the role of a moderator. (and hell i hope there wouldn't be any delay). Hehe.. I just hope tomorrow wont be a long day for me. Amiin..

Hye!!

2010-11-09T06:29:00.003+08:00

saje nak bgtau yg saye masih hidup. Saye mcm malas nak wat posting sbb saye x suke template blog saye. kalau anda rajin nak buatkan design utk blog saye, sile la. hikhik

Bosan Dengan AWAK...

2010-10-03T16:50:00.001+08:00

utk sape2 yg terase...

awak.. kat sini saye nk bgtau, saye rase awak kadang2 merimaskan fikiran saye la.. owhh.. tapi skarang lebih kerap saye rase.. Sorry la.. saye bukan nak tunjuk ego kat sini... tapi saye dah agak bengang la dgn situasi skarang..

Saye rase saye tak pernah kenal siape awak yang sebenar2nye.. Siape awak eh? Awak cume hidup dalam kesamaran saye.. dalam ape yg saye bayangkan, awak ni lain.. dan saye rase, saye tak nak find out pun pasal diri awak yang sebenar2nye.. Awak buang mase saye la.. Saye bosan la dgn interference awak..

awak.. tolong la keluar dari hidup saye.. ini jalan saye.. saye tak nak awak ade dalam future saye... sorry la kalau awak rase saye kejam sbb tulis camni... tapi awak ni memang x reti give up eh? atau x reti malu?

lagi skali, SORRY.. tapi, secare baik, saye mintak awak tolong la blah..

P/S: Selamat Hari Raye. Maaf Zahir Batin..

My Pretty Babies

2010-08-25T23:21:00.001+08:00

Butet tgh tdo..

close up skit...mcm ni punye pesen pon boleh..

terkejut akibat gamba beliau di'snap'..

welcoming a new member of the family.. LOCCO..

Usher In Action ~07.07.10~

2010-08-25T22:04:00.001+08:00

Our (My cousin and i) long awaited fav finally came over.. Sanggup ni bayar ticket mahal2 semate2 nak dok kat 'rock zone'.. We paid RM428 per ticket and were mong the first to purchase the tickets (~.~)

The opening act was performed by Izz.. which we didnt get to see cause the stupid security let us in a little bit late.. tapi xpe.. x penting pon. ehehe.. The second performance was by Misz Nina. She sang 'What U Waiting For', but too bad Colby was not around..

The crowd went crazy cause Usher couldnt perfom till The Queen arrived! Dang!!

Misz Nina and crew

~ ~ ~

Usher performing 'Burn'. But i only managed to record the

final half cos i forgot that i hav my camera with me :p

'Love In This Club'

'Yeah'

'Oh My God'.. buy i only managed to record the frst half..

my camera chose to drain out its battery. Perfect timing :(

Kalau la saye ade 25 jam sehari...

2010-08-24T03:46:00.000+08:00

Kalau la saye ade 25 jam sehari..

- pasti saye membayar 'hutang2' mase bersame kawan..

- pasti saye hantar laptop yg dah ke 100 kali rosak tu pegi repair

- pasti saye menyumbang masa bersama family yg dah start komplen tentang kesombongan saye (owhh saye bukan sombong. tapi kalau saye spend time sekejap je bersame anda2, anda2 sume komplen jugak yg saye ni kejap2 hilang. baik saye hilang lame2 sikit.. hehehe)

- pasti saye pegi buat facial yg saye plan sejak 3 bulan lepas, tapi x pegi2 jugak

- pasti saye pegi treatment rambut saye

- pasti saye pergi Aquaria yg saye plan nak pegi sejak 2-3 tahun lepas tapi x sampai2 jugak.. hmm..

- pasti saye dah pandai masak makanan2 yg sedap2..

- pasti saye dah pegi potong kaki 5 sluar jeans baru saye.. ( x baru sgt la. jeans tu saye dah beli tahun lepas tapi x penah2 pakai)

- pasti saye dah boleh jinakkan Opet dan Nami (my 2 precious sugar gliders) dan bawak diorang pegi jln2..

- pasti saye dah kurus sikit sbb luangkan 1 jam extra utk bermain wii hari2 kat rumah..

- pasti saye update blog hari2.. (bayangkan betape banyaknye saye boleh menulis dlm 1 jam extra itu)

- pasti saye boleh pegi becuti kat tempat yg best2..

- pasti saye dah hafal careography steps lagu Nobody - Wondergirls

- pasti banyak bende yg saye dah boleh buat...

TETAPI.. saye cume ade 24 jam sehari.. dan bukan mudah utk saye memuaskan hati semua org.. Saye sungguh x faham bile org ckp mereka BOSAN! xde mende nak buat ke weyy?? dlm dunia ni banyak bende korang boleh buat.. hargai mase yg korang ade..

owhh sorry la saye merepek. saye mengantuk kat ofis ni. tunggu mase nak balik je. ehehe..

Eh!! Terlupe plak..

2010-06-29T06:13:00.000+08:00

Saye nak ucapkan time kasih utk sume bday wishes. maceh gak sbb ingat.. Dah besar dah saye.. hikhik..
Well.. those numbers dont really make me old.. what matters is how wiser they made me become.. Oleh sbb umur saye pon semakin bertambah, saye dah malas nak entertain perkare2 yg membuang mase. Sbb saye x suke ditunggu dan menunggu. Jadi mase itu platinum utk saye.Saye dah abes merepek. Saye nak buat report. pastu balek tido.. :)

Saye Yg Super Duper BZ..

2010-06-29T06:07:00.000+08:00

Saye dah setel pindah umah.. Tapi baru 95% la settle. Brg blom kemas lagi. Bersepah2 umah tu.. Pastu dgn event bowling @15 lagi saye kene settlekan. Pastu saye nak cari model yg chinese look pulak utk photoshoot Pinkboogie.. Pastu masalah2 org lain pon saye yg kene pikirkan. Sume saye kene wat dlm minggu ni. Jadi kalau ade yg call atau SMS x berjawab tu, sorry ye..

P/S: Penat dah menjage.. saye nak dijage plak.

www.pinkboogie.com

2010-06-17T22:01:00.003+08:00

yeahhh.. mari2.. sape2 yg suke shopping online tu, sile surf www.pinkboogie.com.. online store ni project bersame saye dan aunty dan sepupu sepapat. sape2 yg berminat utk membeli belah, sile register. and kalau ade ape2 nak ditanyekan, boleh email saye di emelia@pinkboogie.com atau pun boleh tanye direct kat sini. owhh.. anda juge boleh cari kami di www.facebook.com/pinkboogie

sekirenye anda ade ape2 suggestions atau pun request, anda sgtlah dialu2kan. kami akan update website sekerap yg mungkin. happy suping2 uols.. :)

Rase Tak?

2010-06-13T17:21:00.001+08:00

Perasan tak saye suke jauhkan diri skarang ni? Perasan tak saye slalu gagal dikesan? Perasan tak walaupun bile saye di depan anda, saye lebih banyak melayan fikiran sendiri? Perasan tak?

Sedar tak itu tanda2 yg saye dah bosan tahap maksima? Sedar tak saye sedang mencari2 jalan keluar tapi tak jumpe? Sedar tak saye dah fed up dgn keadaan yg same? Sedar tak saye dah give up nak pertahankan mase depan yg belum tentu pasti cerah gelapnye?

Lepaskan saye dari ketidakpastian.. Lepaskan saye dari rase simpati.. Lepaskan saye dari perasaan serba salah.. Lepaskan saye dari rase beban keberatan...

P/s: owhh.. saye merepek je. Saye sgt mengantuk kat ofis hari ni.. Tapi, timbang2kan..

Hello Sunshine!

2010-06-05T03:57:00.000+08:00

Hehe.. sorry. agak lame tak update. sampai ade ugut2 ni.. hahaha.. aku bukan ape.. agak bz la (bz la sgt..). wowww.. sebulan lebih gak blog ni bersawang. banyak sgt citer dan luahan yg nak aku conteng kat sini. tapi jari jemari ni mcm refuse je nak bekerje... mesti blog ni merajuk ngan aku sbb aku tak jenguk2. sorry ye bloggy. gamba2 kat gold coast pon aku malas nak post. tunggu ye.. aku try update sekerap yg mungkin.. sayonara.. :)

Taking A Break

2010-04-30T05:21:00.000+08:00

Lagi skali aku nak gi cuti2. ehehehe.. yeyyy.. destinasi kali ni ~~~ GOLD COAST! So, dgn ini, secare rasminye aku ingin mengumumkan bahawa aku akan bercuti selame 10 hari.. Tata..

P/S: Segale pesanan akan dilayan sekirenye anda memberikan bayaran yg secukopnye.. Stakat pesanan menggunekan air liur, akan dibalas ngan air liur gak. time kasey. hikhik..

Singapore

2010-04-27T06:19:00.000+08:00

Last minute planning gi singapore.. Thnx Sygs (Lea & frens) for coming down all the way from JB. Anda semue sangat comel okeyhh..

The 3rd day pegi Sentosa. huhu.. layann.. Tapi masing2 malas amik gamba. hehe.. kepale singe pon jadi la..

One of the things that attracted me in Sentosa.. Wishing tree.. Dorang siap tulis2 wish and gantung kat situ..

Next...Universal Studios.. Mase pegi tu, rollercoaster under maintenance.. Sobss.. Tapi best la.. Walaupun kejap.. huhu. HARUS repeat nih..

a peek along the street..

Far Far Away..

HAHA!!!!

** tu je yg boleh dikongsi.. :)

Sekadar Renungan

2010-04-04T22:34:00.000+08:00

Dah lama x menulis. Bukan malas. Tapi tak ada cerita yg nak digembar gemburkan. Aku masih tersekat di tempat yg sama. Tapi diam itu tak bermakna kosong.. Diam itu selalunya berfikir.

Selalu aku tertanya.. apa sebenarnya yg dicari dlm hidup ini? Ke mana sebenarnya hala tuju kaki ini? Mampukah kita bertahan atas dasar 'tangkap muat'?

Cukupkah dgn bergantung harap pada org lain? Persoalannya sampai bila? Bukan niat utk menempelak mana2 pihak. Cuma sekadar utk mengingatkan siapa kita sebenarnya.

Pernahkah terlintas di fikiran bila suatu masa nanti, tempat bergantung itu hilang? Apa ada dahan lain yg boleh dijadikan tempat berpaut? Atau haruskah dibiarkan saja diri sendiri hanyut mengikut arus? Mungkin juga kekuatan utk berenang ke tepian itu datang? U decide.. JANGAN TERLALU SELESA dgn keadaan sekeliling.

Sentiasa tanamkan dlm fikiran, yang nasib tak akan selalu menyebelahi kita. Oleh itu, renung kembali di mana sebenarnya kita berdiri. Tolong.. Bangun.. Bukan utk siapa2.. Tapi utk diri sendiri.

Sorry..

2010-03-19T07:00:00.000+08:00

Sorry.. Saye sakitkan ati awk.. xyah la buat2 mcm xde ape2.. Xyah pretend as if nothing is going on cos the fact is we both know it, feel it.. Sorry sbb saye mcm x tentu arah.. saye pon xtau ape saye nak. Saye pon x tau hala tuju saye. I dont have something to hold on to anymore. I wake up every single fucking day juz for the sake of living.

I juz hope when all this is over, u'd still have the heart to forgive me, doesnt matter how the end would be. I juz need to let u know, while i still can, how important your role is in my life.. Sorry to drag u in this dip shit. I just dont know how to do this anymore. Suddenly, i'm not so good at what i had been doing well back then.

I'm losing control.. I messed things up.. i seriously fucked up big time. U dont deserve this from me. Damn i wish i could be the person u used to know. But i guess i'm juz not the old me anymore.

I know it's not fair for me to do this to u.. but i'm gonna have to ask u to stay away for a while. Give me some time to sort things out. I'm gonna need some time to be alone. I'm sorry..

Sorry, I Quit

2010-03-08T02:17:00.000+08:00

So tired of this.. a never ending game. U wanna keep on playin it.. go ahead.. find another player to play with. I have to quit. It ain't for me. What's the point of staying in it? I ain't happy. U're too good at it. So good at manipulating..and it's been the umpteenth time i've been deceived. It was a mistake to let u see the other side of me.. the real me. It's ok. Take a bow. The crowd is still watching. U win. Another player will come along, i'm sure.. and.. Good Luck. I wont be there to watch.

My Dear Bebot..

2010-02-25T14:31:00.000+08:00

My Dear Bebot, (aku kene tuka name ko sbb nnti org tau ko sape).
I dont know where to start.. It's so freakingly scary to find out that we share the same story. Honestly, it hurts so bad to see u this way. I know exactly how u feel. I've been there n done that. Aku xtau nak suggest ape. Things are easier said than done. Org2 yg merase je tau feelings tu.

My Dear Bebot,
U've seen how i chose a different path, and how i learned the hardest way of how to walk thru it. I'm still walking thru it. I'm not sure whether u would want the same. Believe me, it sucks. I know u've come to a crossroad and dont know which path u wanna choose. Others would tell u to trust ur heart. But u have to decide of what u NEED.. not what u WANT.

My Dear Bebot,
Whatever path u choose, u know u're gonna have to pay for the other path that u're neglecting. It's gonna hurt for a while.. (well.. it may take longer). But, i can assure u, that we both are gonna find ways to walk out of it.

My Dear Bebot,
I took a pledge that i'll stick around with u..and here i am pledging the same thing. Now look, i cant help u to decide. But, no matter what ur decision is, i promise i'll be there for u. U'll always have me to confide in..

Ni ape gaduh2 ni?

2010-02-23T09:28:00.001+08:00

Saye perasan lately ni ramai plak dok bergaduh2 kat blog ni.. Cukup2 la tu.. Kat sini saye nak menyelesaikan segale kekeliruan yg ade..

yg pertame skali utk GOJENG.. cukup2 la. Maaf saye nyatekan di sini, saye agak rimas dgn anda. I need my own space. Tlg jgn langkah sempadan antara saye dgn anda. Sometimes, anda cube nak ambik tahu ape yg x sepatutnye anda tahu. Dan bile saye xnak bgtau, anda seolah2 xpaham atau buat2 x paham.. Anda tetap akan bertanyekan bende yg serupe tapi dlm bentuk yg lain. Lagi skali saye nyatekan di sini.. SAYE TIDAK BERMINAT UTK BERTUKAR2 NOMBOR TELEFON DGN ANDA. and that's it.

Utk BUBU @ CAPRI @ AMIE.. saye selesa berkawan dgn anda. xkire mcm mane pon perangai anda. sbb saye terime anda seadenye.. tapi tlg jage perasaan org2 lain yg melawat blog ni.Kalau anda rase saket hati dgn teguran2 mereke, diamkan diri. Jgn cpt melenting. Dan xpayah berbalas2 kate2 yg x best.

Utk segale2 ANONYMOUS.. (banyak anony ni).. Kalau anda betol2 jujur dlm meberi pendapat dan teguran, gune la name sendiri. Saye terime semue teguran dgn hati terbuke. Tapi perbuatan sesetengah dprd anda2 ni ibarat BALING BATU, SEMBUNYI tangan. tapi xpe. saye terime BATU yg anda baling tu sebagai SEDEKAH.

owhh.. lagi satu.. saye rase ade ANONY yg keliru mengatakan BUBU @ AMIE @ CAPRI itu Lapis11 @ CAPRIZ. Anda dah tersilap org. CAPRI dan CAPRIZ are TWO totally different individuals. Please take note. dan saye rase Lapis tu xkan mencarut2 pon dlm ni.

utk lagi sorang KAK ANONY.. terime kasih atas teguran anda. utk pengetahuan akak, saye x kisah pon sape2 panggil saye dgn name saye. x perlu ade gelaran 'kakak'. Asalkan die X KURANG AJAR, saye dah cukup selesa. Ape gune kalau dok panggil kak ke ape, tapi BIADAP. lagi skali terime kasih atas teguran2 akak yg saye anggap sgt bernas.

Dan kepade yg lain2.. kalau anda ade perasaan x puas hati, simpan je rase itu. Saye X BERMINAT utk melayan segale2 pertelingkahan yg berlaku di antara anda2 semua. Kalau anda masih nak berperang, SILE CARI TEMPAT LAIN di mane anda boleh memaki hamun sesame anda.

mungkin ade antare anda yg x pernah bace tentang ini di blog saye.. tapi di sini lagi skali saye nyatekan saye menulis blog ini semate2 utk mengingatkan diri sendiri tentang SIAPA SAYE SEBENARNYE. X pernah ade niat di hati utk MENUNJUK2 atau BERBANGGE diri dgn kewujudan blog ini.

Jika anda2 tidak bersetuju dgn pendapat saye, saye mintak maaf. Dan bende ni berakhir di sini. SAYE TAK AKAN MELAYAN ape2 pendapat pon berkenaan hal ini.

Kepade anda2 yg kurang mengenali saye dan rakan2 TERDEKAT, please keep your distance. SIAPE ANDA UTK JUDGE SAYE DAN RAKAN2 SAYE?

HAMEKKK.. SKEMA KAN BAHASE AKU?

Sayang, Please Come Back Home..

2010-02-18T17:25:00.000+08:00

Hahaha.. Aku x leh sebut name ko kat sini. Mainly, sbb aku xnak org tau ko sape.. Takot org tau agenda2 tersembunyi kite.. and yg paling aku takot, org ingat aku songsang. Kakaka.. Balek cpt skit boleh x? Aku x saba dah nak bemesrew dgn ko..Gile hipokrit kan aku?

Ape2 pon, secepat mungkin aku gegarrrrr.. Be ready for me sayang.. wurff!!! kakakaa..

Aku Yang Gatal Dan Miang!!

2010-02-12T03:56:00.000+08:00

Haha.. takot x tgk statement aku? Bukan GATAL dan MIANG yg gitu2 la.. Aku kene allergy amende ntah ni.. Tetibe je 1 badan gatal2.. Cam kene gigit nyamok. Tapi beso2.. huhu.. Dah mcm beruk dah aku kat opis ni dok tergaru2..

Jenuh dah aku pikir2.. Nak kate aku merayap, xde plak. Must be something i ate.. Huhu.. tulunnn.. tgk gamba kat bawah ni.. Imagine this thing being on my whole body. Demit la.. Mmg harus la aku gi klinik. Kene amik shot.. Konpem kene cucuk kat bontot. Bontot pon bontot la. Janji kegatalan dan kemiangan aku hilang!

Shim's Bachelorette Party

2010-02-07T21:02:00.001+08:00

Congratulations Shim! I know the girls are trying to scare u with the bad visions of married life. But screw them. U love him so much, and we're so damn happy for u.. Those bad asses don't realize what they're missing.. (including me. hehe)..

Moving On

2010-02-03T06:31:00.000+08:00

Cehh.. cam tajuk buku text skulah rendah plak. Whatever it is.. i think this is exactly i NEED to do. Holding on to this heartache is leading me nowhere. I'm still stuck between false hope and reality. To some, holding on makes us stronger. But sometimes, it's letting go.

Now, i'm not gonna lie. This has been hurting me like hell. Still does. I'm trying to find ways to get the hell out of this. If this is what u have to pay for being nice, then why bothering being nice at all? I don't know if one ever deserves a pain like this.. but i'm embracing it ALL at once.

I seriously don't know what's going on. Still trying to figure out. But i guess my time is up. I have to learn to move on. It might take forever, but i'm willing to take any possibilities there are. I don't mind walking around with the scars. That's who i really am..

I have to be honest, i cant stop thinking of what i've done wrong. Have i ever hurt a person like i'm being hurt now? If i ever did, i don't think i'd be able to forgive myself. How could i be so COLD HEARTED and CRUEL? I don't even dare to think about it. It'll hurt me more. I just hope, i wont ever have to play that part
anymore.

I know we only look at what we wanna see.. Listen to only what we wanna hear till we tend to forget what else is important. Shutting out the rest of the world. Curse me for being that person.

To Shelley, i think u're right. Maybe Allah is preparing me for something better. I hope so. If this is what it takes for me to learn to be stronger, then i'll walk on this path. Be good or bad..

To Mas Baizura, u really amaze me. I didn't know u once led this path. Believe me, if i did, i would've been there with u all along. I'm sorry i didn't. I was too busy being selfish. Maybe u're right. This is not what i deserve, but it's more like a lesson i shall learn. Something i SHALL NOT DO to others. I think u're right. Maybe I haven't tried hard enough. Thank u for making me see things from different views. Somehow i feel like u're the missing puzzle. Let start with our dance class soon, shall we?

To Alfie, ur words were harsh. But i know u were trying to make me feel better and most important, being brutally honest. I'm thankful to have met someone like u. Maybe this is not bad after all. Thank u for being there.

Adam, this is something u should learn. Hehe.. i'm not trying to scare u. But please.. think about the consequences. And thank u for being such a GREAT friend.

Baizura Sabri, i should've listened to u. U were right all along. I created an opportunity for this mess. If there's a one person who should keep me on the ground, it's u.

Putra, i know u hate me for being this way. I can't thank u enough. U're being such a good friend. Checking on me every single day..and i'm so thankful for u.

Aryana, i wonder how could a girl as young as u are could offer such advice.

Enji n Alin, thank u for being good listeners. Jom karok!

Abg Mike, pray for me. U're being such a good big brother. It's good to know that u're around to keep me on the ground.

To everyone else who was being there all along, (still being there) i swear i cant thank u enough. My prayers are always with u.

To myself..this is the time for repentance. I pray for the courage to grow and the faith to know that this will eventually be turned to a good thing after all..

Nak Sgt Kurus Kan?? Hamekkk!!

2010-02-02T20:34:00.000+08:00

Nak sgt kurus.. i asked for it. But it happens in undesirable way. 4 hari dok hospital rase cam dok nerake okeyh. Siyesli mase aku start demam, aku rase mcm mase aku dah sampai je. Dah la x leh bangun, breathing pon x stabil.. Last2, kene masuk spital..

Thanx to Mak Long, Pak Long, Makchu, Abg Man, Aunty Julie, Uncle Tim, Zura, Iwan, Intan and Alfie for dropping by. A million thanx to Mr. Yus for being there ALL the time. Thanx Putra, Abg Mike, Afiq, Adam, Jura, Rini, Wanie, Eja and EVERYONE else for the endless phone calls and text messages to keep me BUSY! U guys know how much u mean to me.. And thanx to everyone else that helped me thru..

Yg Terdetik..

2010-01-17T06:31:00.001+08:00

-Still susah nak tido..

-Hari ni rase sgt2 berdose..

-Still memujuk hati sendiri..

-Cube nak ingat name2 mereka yg disakiti..nak mintak maaf..

-Perlahan2 terime hakikat yg Allah tu adil.. baik buruk yg kite buat, ade balasan..

-Tersedar bahawa ade lagi 'manusia' di sebalik 'kebinatangan'..

-Mencube sedaye upaye utk berlaku adil..

-Tau.. aku mmg '***' pon all these while..

-Masih sakit..

-Sedang menerima balasan..

-Masih di bawah roda.. (lambat betol kali ni roda ni nak jln naik atas)

-Mencari2 cara nak bangun selepas tersungkur.. Mcm mane nk jln ni? merangkak pon belum..

-Tetibe gelak sendiri sbb perasan ape yg kene kat diri sendiri ni betul2 ape yg penah dibuat kat org lain.

-Ckp pasal halal haram.. aku halalkan segale2 yg pernah diambil dari aku oleh sape2 pon..

-Terfikir nak bawak diri jauh2.. tapi, aku bukan pengecut, bukan budak2..

-Nak migrate ke xnak ni?

-Owh.. masih ade yg sudi berkongsi sedih. Alhamdulillah..

-Junjungan terime kasih kepade mereka2 yg sudi tlg aku utk bangun.. help me walk thru this pleaseeee..

-Belajar utk x sakitkan hati sape2 lagi.. Sbb nnti dpt balasan lagi.. serik dah ni..

-i'm heading north people.. coming, anyone?

Al-Fatihah..

2010-01-14T22:46:00.000+08:00

On Saturday, 9th January 2010, my beloved grandfather had passed away peacefully after almost a week beeing in comma. He passed away in front of all his children and most of his grandchildren. It was a heartbreaking moment for everyone.. but at least, he did not suffer for long.

Frankly, it broke my heart to see my grandma in grief. She has lost a friend of almost 60years. I can't imagine the saddness that she still feels. I don't even dare to put myself in her shoes. I just pray that she'll embrace it as it is.. May Allah bless his soul. Al-Fatihah.

Thank You..

2010-01-06T02:38:00.005+08:00

It's amazing of how things work out their own ways to make us see what awaits us ahead. It's surprising of how obstacles make us realize how strong we can be...and it's soooo damn funny of how things u did, get back to u in thousands of ways.

Thinking back, maybe i deserve this. But then again, life is a cycle.. Everything in between just makes it more interesting...or painfull. For me, this is just a beginning of a new chapter..and i dont know if i'll walk out of it unhurt.

For those whom i have hurt, i'm sorry.. i truly am.. I guess i'll have to live with the guilt.. For those who stick around, thank u.. no words can express my appreciation.. For those who walked away, keep on walking... It's your loss and i'm sorry for it..

P/S: To Mr. Puca, i'm no longer your baby girl.. i know u said i'll always be.. but i'm big enough to handle things in my own ways.. So Stop worrying.. :')

Happy New Year

2010-01-01T08:07:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year utk sume. Semoge tahun ni lebih baik dari tahun lepas. Taun ni aku xde azam sgt pon. Xde hati nak berazam. All i'm wishing for is to have a peace of mind. Give me back my life. I desperately want it back. Again, happy new year..

Untuk Anda..

2009-12-26T14:45:00.001+08:00

xtau camne nak start..

tapi, jari jemari saye nak menulis.. otak saye dah penat berfikir. Perlu ke sebenarnye semue kesakitan ni? Mungkin, bagi org x penah kene, dorang akan ckp x perlu. Maybe, to most people, the best way is to walk away.. Dulu, saye pon penah ckp camtu.. Skang, dah rase sendiri, baru menggelabah.. (ye.. sile gelakkan saye wahai setan2 sekelian alam).

Maafkan saye kalau tulisan kali ni, terpakse berlapik.. demi menjage name2 yg x bersalah.. saye pon x tau sape yg bersalah dlm hal ni. Mungkin saye.. Mungkin anda.. Mungkin die.. atau mungkin mereka.. Tapi yg pasti, saket tu, saye yg rase. Anda mungkin x rase. Ape yg pasti, saye perlukan jawapan sejujur yg mungkin.

Come closer, and u'll see the worst way a person could ever bleed..

What I Don't Know Won't Hurt Me.. Yet.

2009-12-18T01:55:00.001+08:00

If u're staying close with the intention to hurt.. stay away. I don't think i can endure another tinge of pain.

Jgn Jeles..

2009-12-11T01:04:00.002+08:00

hahaha.. nak tayang jek.. lalala..

Christmas Wishlist

2009-12-09T05:41:00.003+08:00

Khairul suggest kat aku wat wishlist utk Christmas. So aku dgn berat hati (konon² la kan..) nak wat senarai kat sini. Ade x sape2 yg baik ati nak kasik aku? hahaha.. Tingat zaman² ade besties dulu. Slalu tuka² gifts mase christmas.. sobss..

ipod touch

DKNY Be Delicious Fresh Blossom

canon speedlite flash

Blackberry Bold 9700

Tapi cam biase la.. Angan² je la yg aku mampu.. haha..

Nak Tengok New Moon..

2009-12-09T05:07:00.001+08:00

Haishh.. ramainye org ckp movie ni x best sbb banyak scene lentok2.. Tapi aku nak tgk gak.. sbb aku kan kunun2 hopeless romantic. kakaka. Romantic la sangattt.. gedik ade la kot.. Tapi aku xtau nak gi ngan sape. Oleh sbb ramai yg ckp citer ni x best, aku TAK NAK pegi ngan org yg suke kritik and berlagak ok.. Aku juz nak enjoy. Bukan nak komplen pasal selection aku x best. So sape2 yg rase die romentik gak, jom blanje aku.. :p

Boogieliciously Fun Work

2009-11-28T14:08:00.001+08:00

Best.. best.. best.. muehehe. Aritu kitorang wat photoshoot utk online boutique aunty aku.. Maceh to all models and photographers.. Pasni leh wat lagi eh.. xleh letak gamba banyak² sbb gamba lom upload dlm website. Nnti aku kene tuduh breach of contract plak. muehehe. Nnti dah siap, aku letak link kat blog aku..

L-R: Makchu, Zura, Me

L-R: Enji, Munira, Elle, Alin

Weh! Aku Moody Ni..

2009-11-26T09:17:00.000+08:00

Aku juz nak bgtau aku tgh moody.. Dah dekat 2 minggu aku camni.. Nak kate pelawat setia aku nak melawat, rasenye kalau mengikut kire², minggu depan.. Tapi awal² hormon aku dah start berterabur..

Taim² camni, kalo ade bende x kene skit je, mmg silap la. Kalo agak² xnak sentap, jauhkan diri buat sementara.. Mase² cenggini, mulut aku mmg laju je kalau ade bende x kene..

Ye.. Mesti korang ckp aku poyo.. Dah la x cantek.. Poyo plak tu.. Aku pon rase kdg² aku poyo.. Tapi baik aku berpoyo terang²an drpd aku dok ngumpat blakang². Pastu bermuke². Aku bukan jenis camtu..

Haishh.. kesian kat org² yg TERPAKSE melayan kerenah aku taim moody ni.. Kpd yg memahami, time kaseh banyak². It means a lot to me. I promise i'll return the favor.. Dan kepade yg xnak memahami, tlg berambus jauh²..

Banyak sbb yg buat aku moody.. Aku bosan dgn org yg xreti appreciate org lain. Aku bosan dgn lelaki yg berperangai TYPICAL MAN. Dan aku x suke berharap pada something yg xmenampakkan hasil. Ye aku selfish. So what?

Malas nak membebel.. Aku cume perlukan sesuatu yg fresh.

Wahai Insan² Kesayangan..

2009-11-11T22:57:00.005+08:00

Sekadar luahan hati utk insan2 kesayangan..

sedar x kite masing² mcm dah jauh? :')
saye xtau samade saye sorang yg rase mcm tu..atau anda² pon rase gak.. hmmm.. i dont know where did we all go wrong..mungkin berpunce dari saye.. mungkin berpunce dari anda²..atau mungkin sbb keadaan sekeliling?

i dont need those I LOVE YOUs.. mungkin agak akward kalo kite sume asik ckp I LOVE YOU.. but at least, simple gestures would be enough..mungkin kite semue dah kurang berkomunikasi..atau mungkin dah tiade perkare utk dikomunikasikan? we no longer talk about the HIGHs and LOWs.. xde lagi gurau sende sesame kite semue mcm dulu.. atau mungkin sebab saye MISKIN anda² sume lari jauh² drpd saye? hikhik..

mungkin kite semue terlalu comfortable dgn masing²..sampai membuatkan kite semue sentiase take things between us all for granted..we assume too much..until all the assumptions become curiosities.. until all the curiosities become doubts.. lets not wait until doubts become ACCUSATIONS.. i dont know where this is leading us to..Hell, i'm too scared to find out..

dont let me go astray.. i may not find my way home..

Astro BOE Team Building Forum @ P.D.

2009-11-11T05:35:00.009+08:00

Last weekend (7-9 Nov 2009), team Broadcast and Operations Astro kene attend team building forum yg dah lame postponed sbb kes H1N1.. Walopon aku malas, aku pon juin gak. Huk.. Kejar KPI beb..

Pepagi sebelom bertolak sempat lagi amik gamba tu.. huhu.. Aku dgn muke sembab x tido.. hukhuk.. Pucat semacam je aku rase.. Aku iye² la rushing ingat bertolak kul 8.. rupenye 8.45 pg baru gerak. Ampeh la dorang..

~~~

Sampai je Selesa beach Resort tu, diorang x kasi check in terus. takut ade yg tido. So dorang pakse kitorang gi introduction kat ball room. huhu.. Melepas la niat aku nak ngulor..

Mase introduction tu, diorang dah bagi² team. Huhu.. terpakse la aku berpisah ngan mod² lain. Siap kene create team cheer.. bab ni paling aku lemah. Cam bebudak la nak kene jerit² bagai kan.. Pastu siap kene gi tepi pantai wat team cheer kat sane.. wargghhh.. pelis la.. Aku penat wehh..

~~~

Masuk je bilik, aku tinguk siap ade welcome note ngan bunge rose lagi okeyh.. Giler beriye astro nih. huahuahua.. terharu la jap kan.. best x bilik aku? Oleh sbb partner kemungkaran aku x datang, bilik itew aku yg punyeeeee.. huahuahua.. beh wooo.. heaven giler.. Tapi mlm² jek mule la perasaan ngeri aku dtg. Nak² sebelom tido aku dok flip channels, sume citer antu.. bodo la..

~~~

Pas mandi², mlm tu kitorang ade dinner.. Theme utk dinner tu 'Masquarade'. Haha.. amik la kan. Sorang² berangan bagai.. Yeaaaa.. aku berangan sebagai ayam mlm tu.. hikhik. gedik x? lalala.. Bak kate Pesal, kurrr kurrrr.. hakhak.. Ampeh.. Sbb mask tu la, team leader aku x dpt cari aku utk perform atas stage. kakaka.. Seb bek.. dpt gak aku escape. ade ke nak suh aku yg macho ni juget² atas stage.. mmg TAK la..

Ape² pon.. Congrats Pesal sbb menang BEST DRESSED MALE.. menjadi gak tektik ko yg x layan org tego tu.. huhu.. Giler horror.. tapi bai lagi horror.. tinggal nak bawak penyapu jek dah konpem jadik nenek sihir.. Leh lawan Oma Bertha dlm citer Bawang Putih, Bawang Merah tu..

~~~

The next day tu.. sambung lagi activities.. Huhu.. Siap kene wat kapal terbang la bagai.. Plane team aku siap leh wat sommersault.. Jgn marahhh.. Ngehngeh.. pastu ade outdoor activities. Yg ni mmg x sempat amik gamba.. Sbb bz giler².. Dok mengelejat cam cipan kene bakar.. penat gilerrrrrrrrr.. Seb bek la aku x pensan.. Susah la kalo pensan.. Shayne Ward xde nak wat CPR.. hukhuk..

~~~

Balik je bilik, aku tgk ade beg ngan note atas katil.. bile bukak beg tu.. ade lagi beg ngan pen. Astro ni mmg bek ati la. hikhik.. rajin tol kasik gifts kalo ade events camnih.. Sile wat lagi taun depan.. Pastu kasik la iPhone ke sebijik sorang.. Konpem aku akan bekerje dgn lebih rajin lagi. hikhik..

~~~

Mlm tu.. patotnye ade barbeque dinner kat beach skali ngan karaoke session.. Tapi atas sebab² yg aku sendiri pon x paham, hotel management x kasik. So dorang wat dinner kat pool side je.. Pastu karaoke dlm ball room. huhu.. Mmg sengal giler².. Mmg aku xlayan la. Kitorang siap main poker kat table blakang.. Ape² pon.. Mummy-and-Daddy-to-be ( gamba yg second last tu)sempat la gak duet 1 lagu same² kan. Ecehh..

Pas abis men poker, aku balik bilik. Gile x leh tido sbb badan aku sume sakit akibat ektibiti menggedik ptg tu.. Hukkk.. Nyesal aku kasik 110% commitment.. Kul 3 kot baru leh lelap.. badan dah rase x sedap..

Esok paginye, selambe je aku bangun lambat.. Breakfast pon kul 9.30. Pas breakfast, x gi pon closing forum.. Aku tido je kat bilik. Kitorang bertolak balik KL kul 12.30.. Kul 1.30 dah sampai. giler laju driver bas tu merempit.. Seb bek la aku tido.. x sedar sgt.. Sekian..

~~END~~

P/S: sile jgn CURI gamba² ni pastu antar kat cenel.. time kasey..

Utk Cruuk dan cetes² yg seangkatan dgnnya..

2009-11-10T22:20:00.006+08:00

Assalamualaikum..

Entri ni saye wat khas utk cetes yg gune nick Cruuk.. (mungkin jugak akan terdetik di hati anda sedikit perasaan bangge sbb saye wat entri ni khas utk anda). Saye tahu anda obses amik gamba mod².. And saye x kisah pon kalau anda nak CURI gamba² dari blog ni. Tapi, saye mintak anda TOLONG RESPECT skit kat saye dgn tidak menghantar gamba² ni ke cenel @15 dlm bentuk MMS, MMSX ataupon CHATG. Nak curi, curi je la.. Xyah tayang² k. Time kasey..

P/S: entri ini juge sebagai peringatan kepade CETES² yg lain yg suke curi gamba dlm blog ni. Xpayah saye sebutkan sape. U know who u are. Kalau anda nak saye dan org sekeliling anda respect anda, mungkin anda perlu belajar respect saye dan org lain dulu.

@15 Celebration Party

2009-10-31T11:12:00.004+08:00

Last Thursday, mod² dijemput utk menghadiri celebration party utk @15 kat Hard Rock Cafe.. Mod² yg dtg - aku, Rini, Cem, Bai, Pesal ngan Bear.. Jura yg kunun² nak dtg, kene telan ngan jaws mase on the way..

Sumpah, more that half the team, mmg aku x kenal.. huhu.. Slame ni banyak ckp dlm fon je kalau ade pape prob. Ex mod cam J ngan Enji pon ade dtg gak. huhu.. Paling kesian kat Rini, sbb dorang nganjeng die sbb pakai baju cam waitress. hehe.. Shiannnn.. Sampai siap kene berlakon tu..

P/S: sile la layan kegedikan Pesal ngan Bear tu eh..

Mustika Open House @ Alor Star

2009-10-31T11:05:00.001+08:00

Last week, Sabtu, 24 Oct 2009 aku ngan Jura join Mustika Open House kat Alor Star. x paham aku.. raye dah abeh. siap dah deepavali dah okeyhh.. Huhu. Atas sbb tertentu, kitorang mmg xde mud nak amik gamba. Ade la 2-3 ketul je aku snap..

Terime kasih kpd cetes² yg dtg aritu.. Rjuna dan family, MakNjang (ehem²), Inazarina, Marhailyta dan AngsaLima and the geng.. (kakaka.. Jura punye pasal la sampai tersesat dok semeja ngan AngsaLima ni). Huhu..

Go Green

2009-10-17T02:41:00.003+08:00

Haha.. Whaddayathink? hikhik.. I knowww.. i knowwww.. i'm a little over the edge.. But HELL!! do i care? hikk.. Selambe gi wat highlights ijau.. ngehngeh.. Wait till my grandma sees it. She'll roll her eyes. i bet.. whoaaaa. But as always.. i'll get away with it.. she'll forgive me anyways :p

Mule2 ingat x nampak sgt. Sbb hairdresser tu ckp kaler die xkan naik sgt sbb rambut aku itam. Skali pas basuh.. Hahhh!! hamek kauuuu.. hairdresser tu siap suggest aku wat highlights merah skali.. Waklusss. ingat rambut aku trepik lait ke ape?

hahahaha.. ape2 pon.. aku suke kaler ni.. xde la teruk sgt kan? bukan aku kaler 1 kepale pon.. Owhh saje je edit gamba xnak kasik nampak muke aku sbb aku tgh ade jerawat. hohoho.. tgk mate je cukop k..

1001 kisah

2009-10-14T05:58:00.003+08:00

PERINGATAN: Entri ni hanye utk aku fahami.. utk ingatkan aku.. JGN TANYE ape2 pasal entri ni.

Kisah 1: ok la.. masih xde toleransi. Tapi xpe.. Aku mengalah. Aku cube wat yg termampu.. diingatkan skali lagi, aku x perfect. Aku masih lagi berpegang pade GIVE n TAKE.

Kisah 2: kenape la skarang? kenape x dulu? kenape x mase depan? ape² pon, aku pasti.. Dia ade agenda sendiri. I'm juz trying to go with the flow..terime kasih sbb sudi jadi pendengar setia. Walopon kdg² ko buat aku gilerr.. I really appreciate ur role. Maceh for keeping me happy whenever i need it.. A penny for ur thought. kdg², ko sgt comel ko tau x? ahahaha.. Sbb ko la, aku dah jadi cam budak².. hari² aku wish aku ade super power. hakhak..

Kisah 3: aku siyes x paham ngan ko.. Apsal la ko kisah sgt pasal aku ni? Aku kagum ngan effort ko nak intefere dlm idup aku. Tapi sumpah cara ko salah.Ko ni bijak..tapi syg, ko x gune kebijakan ko tu.. Jgn kejar bende yg x pasti.

Kisah 4: aku still x puas ati. aku tunggu penjelasan ko. lebih setahun ni. Aku tau ko bace blog aku. Babe, i dont let things go easily. U juz cant walk away from the damage that u've done. hello.. last skali kite jumpe, my family was around.. Kalo x, mungkin muke ko dah berbirat². Ko xyah nak tanye² kaba aku dari org lain. Ko ckp cam ko perfect la kan. Ey, gi mati la dgn teori ko tu. Cara ko ckp, mcm ko menolak takdir. Siyes aku rase ko pengecut. U have no balls!! (saje je aku ckp.. tapi mmg ko xde pon. Ko pompuan..)

Kisah 5: tlg jgn kejar aku. Aku rimas la. Jgn nak wat² baik dgn aku. Aku tau ko ade niat lain. Jgn harapkan aku kalo ko x sehebat Shayne Ward. hahaha.. Ko ensem.. Ko baik..tapii.. errr ade something wrong la dgn ko.. hukkk.. Sebelom aku halau ko jauh², gi kejar org lain plssss.

Wakluss La Burung!!

2009-10-12T00:19:00.009+08:00

Warghhhh! Bengang tol aku ngan burung2 kat Astro ni. Dorang ingat dah leh besa kepale la dpt wat sarang dlm kawasan Astro tuh. Ptg tadi pas abes shift, aku pon dgn excited nye jln la menuju ke keta dgn pasaan senang ati. Skali sampai2 je.. masyaallahhh!! Bertepek2 tek burung atas keta aku!!! Seb bek aku x pensan..

Dorang ingat keta aku ni tandas awam ke haper?? kalo seketul dua, xde la aku kesah sgt.. Ni dah mcm acara berry beramai2 plakkkk.. siap ade yg masih panassss (dari gaye mende alah tu la aku tgk.. xde la plak aku pegang kan..) Siap meleleh2 plak tu.. Aku rase burung2 tu baru balek open house umah sape ntah.. makan rendang basi.. tu yg kene cerry berry (cirit birit la dlm bahse yg manis skit)... Keta ahkakkk gak jadik mangse..

Dgn hati yg hawttttt (nak gak eja gedik2), aku pon drive la gak keta tu.. Walopon berat ati.. Skali..sampai plak kat pakgad, dorang leh gelakkan plak keta aku yg penuh dgn permate2 itewww.. wakluss la pakgad.. Aku pon senyum2 kamben la wat muke seposen..

Aku terus gi car wash.. Skali mamat bangla kat situ, bleh plak senyum2 tgk keta aku yg mcm kene attack dgn bom tu.. Budus la ko.. Aku suh ko cuci keta. Bukan gelakkan keta aku.. nak jek aku jotos pale ko tadi... Seb bek la aku ni beriman..

Ape2 pon, keta aku dah selamat disucikan dari segale najis muhafafah, mutawwasitah, dan mughalazah.. hikhik.. Pasni, mmg aku xkan faking lagi kat spot tu..

Mood Cuti2

2009-10-08T08:04:00.002+08:00

ngeeeee.. juz nak bgtau aku skang tgh bercuti. Bukan cuti2 mesia.. tapi cuti2 umah sendiri. hahaha.. aku bz settlekan keje2 yg tertangguh.. huhu.. oleh sbb aku tgh cuti2, aku nak update blog pon malassss.. bukan xde citer nak kungsi, tapi aku mmg xde mud.. time kasey pade sahabat yg sering bertandang tiap2 bulan.. sbb ko la aku rase cam org gile skang ni. nak je aku guling dari atas sampai dapo..

Selamat Hari Raye!

2009-09-21T06:47:00.000+08:00

Hehe.. Aku saje wish lambat sbb aku baru nak start beraye. Tamat la sudah penyiksaan kene keje direct 6 hari.. Siyes aku berdendam nih.. Hoh! Korang saje men tipu jadual.. Cam nak mati aku keje..

Di kesempatan ni.. aku nak ucapkan samat ari raye pade sume² la.. Maap zahir batin atas segale salah silap aku kat korang.. Sume yg 'ter' tu arap dimaapkan.. terkutuk ke.. terkate ke.. terkasar ke.. terlucah ke.. hukhuk.. Halalkan makan minum.. Kite start afresh balek. Pas raye, meh buat salah silap lagi. Pastu taun depan, leh mintak maap lagi... Kalo panjang umur.. Aku nak balek ipoh ngan hati yg tenang ni. Bek korang maapkan aku.. hikhik..

Utk sesape yg aku penah sakitkan hati die.. X kire la dengan sengaje atau x.. (err aku rase banyak yg sengaje kot. sbb aku suke balas dendam.. nasib la..) Aku mintak maap banyak². Korang tau la mulut aku ni selaju jet pejuang dlm bab² serang balas nih.. Laju je aku nak menjawab kan.. Dan pade sesape jek yg penah wat salah silap ngan aku, siyes aku dah maapkan awal². Sbb aku xnak esok korang terpakse plak cari aku kat SANE semate² nak mintak maap.. Memaafkan lebih baik dari meminte maaf.. Hik.. So lagi skali.. samat ari raye.. maap zahir batin.. (siyes aku iklas mintak maap nih..)

Ektibiti Membuli Butet

2009-09-21T06:34:00.003+08:00

Errr.. Di pagi raye yg indah.. Aku balik je keje, aku tgk adik aku tgh buli² Butet.. sian die. Adik aku yg laki ni mmg kuat buli Butet.. Butet pon aku tgk naik nyampah dah ngan die.. Adik aku tu bukan ape.. Die tgh sewel sbb 1st time x beraye ngan mama aku. Padan muke. sape suh x cari tiket awal².. Kan dah kene balik ngan aku.. Tgk la.. dlm umah gelap² pon die pakai sunglasses okeyhh..

Err.. Ni gamba Butet buat² pensan mase adik aku buli die.. Die punye la bengang kan. Aku saspek die pening² lalat la.. Sbb die x mampu nak bukak mate.. mau x nye.. kene lambung la.. Kene gulek² cam ayam panggang la.. Kene angkat tinggi² la.. adoi laa. Aswad.. pelis la jgn buli Butet lagi.. Hoh..

Err.. ni plak gamba Butet pas aku amik die.. Tepakse la aku pujuk².. Gusuk².. Muke die dah xleh blah la mase ni. Wakaka. siyes la aku gelak².. tapi Kesian.. Mmg nampak sgt la ketidakpuasan hati die terhadap adik aku.. Aku rase, x lame lagi, mesti adik aku kene gigit ngan Butet tu.. huhu.. Tgk la.. sampai nak bukak mate pon x larat dah.. adoi..

Posto! Posto!!

2009-09-21T06:25:00.002+08:00

Aritu.. (jumaat minggu lepas) aku dpt parcel kat opis.. Dari PROFkusut.. Maceh manyak² prof.. hikk.. Siyes aku terharu.. hukhuk.. (lap ingus jap)..

Prof kirimkan aku T-shirt (adiah bday katenye) yg custom made. siyes aku suke.. yeyy!! Siap ade Qenotysaurus k kat blakang tu. hikhik.. Korang jgn jeles. hoh!! Aku tau pasni mesti ade siton² budek² prof gak. Profffff. Jgn layan keyhhhh.. ekekeke

Lagi 1.. die kirimkan aku kek lapis BUATAN SENDIRI okeyhh.. Name kek tu London Look.. Err betol ke ni Prof? Aku x tau la tang mane LONDON nye kek tu. tapi.. siyes aku ckp.. Sedapppppppppppppppp gilerrrrrrrrrrrrrr... hikhik.. Nyam².. Korang tgk gamba je la eh. Fresh baked tu.. Pas siap, die pon x rase terus pos kat aku. Tenkiu banyak² Proffffffff.. Sayang Prof.. mwah².. (siyes Prof ni salah sorang cetes yg aku rase very comfortable with..)

Sahur Bersame Anak² Yatim

2009-09-21T06:13:00.005+08:00

Haritu.. (aku x ingat la bape aribulan..sbb sebenornye dah lame aku nak letak gamba kat sini. Tapi aku malas..) Aku ngan Jura ikut team MURAI.COM gi sahur ngan anak² yatim umah Baitul Hidayah kat Puchong.. Aku xde mud sgt nak amik gamba mase tu sbb aku tgh feeling² sedey kan.. Weh.. aku pon ade pasaan okeyhh.. ni sume gamba² kejadian..

Kad Raye Giant..

2009-09-21T06:00:00.003+08:00

Kad raye paling besar taun ni kitorang dpt dari CIVIC69TYPER.. hikhik.. Sile abaikan mudel kat blakang kad tu.. bayangkan mudel yg beso tu pon terlindung ngan kad tu. Ni kan plak aku yg halus nih.. Maceh Civic.. kehkeh..

Insecurity Sucks

2009-09-16T23:31:00.000+08:00

Siyesli aku x suke ape aku rase skang. Sbb aku confuse nak mati nih.. I hate insecurity.. Maybe this is juz another mid life crisis that i'm goin thru.. Tapi.. Sebagai manusia biase, aku SANGAT TERDEDAH PADA KEBUSANAN.. Routines and normalities bore me. Uncertainties kill me..and.. the people i love most..

Bile aku rase uncertain, aku mule cari jalan utk ilangkan perasaan tu. Tapi slalunye, aku akan amik jalan² yg bodoh.. Ye betol.. aku x suke dikongkong.. Sbb bile aku dikongkong, utak aku xkan bekerje.. but that doesnt mean i prefer to be ingnored.. This is what happens when we enter a comfort zone.. We tend to assume.. Please..please.. please.. Don't take me for granted. My ground shakes easily..It's YOUR responsiblity to keep my feet on it. So, hold me tight before i fall..

Sorry.. aku mmg selfish. So what?? Aku mmg ego.. Ade masalah?? Aku bleh bertukar (hikk.. cam gaban plak) dlm sekelip mate. lalat pon x sempat terbang.. I could be the most cold-hearted person u'll ever know..

Sedih ke? Marah ke? Amende nih?

2009-09-13T08:21:00.005+08:00

Saje nk bgtau aku tgh sedey,marah, bengang dan mcm2 lagi. Sume dah campor2 sampai aku xtau nak rase mane 1 dulu. All i know is, i cant take this any longer. Sampai bile aku nak idup dlm denial nih?

Somebody please take away what i'm feeling.. If this is what i have to pay for a tinge of excitement, then i'd rather feel no more. The door is already opened. U know what u'd wanna do..

Blogger Award Dari Lillies

2009-09-11T08:31:00.002+08:00

Hikk. Dapat award dari Cik Lillies kite.. Macehhh..

Syarat-syarat untuk ambil awards ini:

1. Buat Posting tentang Award ini.

2. Linkkan pemberi awards ini di entri itu.

3. Copy-paste Image di atas.

4. Sebelum ambil jangan lupa tinggalkan komentar di entri ini.

Skang aku nak tag org² berikut:

1. JURA.. (Ko WAJIB buat)
2. Nami
3. Meknonel
4. Prof
5. Aryana Mikez
6. Riss
7. Eman
8. Capri
9. Cik Epal
10. Samaira
11. Nek AinNuraniza
12. Sume followers blog aku. ngehngeh.. (hamek korang)

Berbuka @ Concorde Hotel, Shah Alam

2009-09-10T15:26:00.007+08:00

Hari Ahad aritu, Astro anjurkan majlis berbuke pose ngan anak² yatim kat Concorde Hotel Shah Alam.. Dorang jempu skali mod² ngan cetes² bertuah.. Ni sume gamba² sekitar majlis. Yg beh tu.. kebanyakan mod² sume pakai baju kaler coklat. Haha. Tapi sumpah x plan.. Cam comey je kan kitorang sume sehati berdansa pakai baju kaler same. hikhik..

P/S: JGN CURI GAMBA KAT SINI. BULAN POSE NI.. AKU SUMPAH SAPE YG CURI X MINTAK IZIN TU JADI VACUUM. UMAH AKU XDE VACUUM LAGI NIH..

Menconteng Arang!!

2009-09-10T15:11:00.003+08:00

Hoho.. Saje nak bgtau. Aritu name² di atas tu sume tgh xde keje. Sume gi bertape kat blog Aryana.. Sume men conteng2. Tapi tangan aku paling menggigil.. Kakaka. Maklum la. Nebes weh, cet kat kapet di mane aku bukan mod. Hohoho..

Yg paling atas telah dirusakkan oleh makhluk perusak.. Yg tgh² tu x jadik sbb aku lukih leb² tu sambil tangan gigil². Yg last tu, makhluk perusak telah menebus dose dgn menulung aku lukih leb² tu dgn comey skali. hikhik..

Fast Breaking @ Menara Tinjau

2009-09-10T12:39:00.008+08:00

Hari Sabtu lepas, kitorang gi berbuke kat Menara Tinjau, Ampang.. Siyes ni aku xpenah denga pasal tempat tu. Tu la pes taim.. Tapi, not bad. Best.. Kat atas tu ade 3 restoran.. Leh nampak view 1 KL..

gamba 1: Depan pintu masuk Menara Tinjau. Aku tgh bertekak ngan adik aku tu.. hoh..

gamba 2: Restaurant yg kitorang gi makan..

gamba 3 & 4: whole KL view dari restoran tu..

gamba 5: adik² aku..

gamba 6: aku tgh feeling² ayu tapi x menjadi sbb kepenatan baru balik keje..

gamba 7: tomyam ayam

gamba 8: grilled chicken chop

gamba 9: spaghetti bolognaise

gamba 10: grilled sirloin steak

gamba 11: banana springrolls with ice cream

gamba 12: aku feeling² menggedik kat atas menare tu..

Tag Dari Lillies

2009-09-06T11:13:00.003+08:00

Ni tag dari Lillies. Hehe.. Jom²..

1. nama timangan anda di rumah...
Eme

2. anda seorang yang...
camne aku nak judge diri sendiri ni? huhu.. paling obvious... Aku hot tempered. Nasib korang la..

3. lagu favourite
banyak.. aku layan je. Cam skang aku tgh rajin denga lagu² zaman skolah dulu. Tapi..err.. sorry, aku x pandai layan muzik local artistes. Diorang kurang membuke selera aku. Korang nak ckp aku berlagak? haha.. Ade aku kesah? cak cak cak cak cak cak cak cak..

4. makanan kegemaran
ape tekak aku rase nak makan, aku makan..

5. soalan telah daku abaikan....
err. x paham. soalan ape ni?? aku x mengabai soalan ape² pon.

6. warna kesukaan
aku suke semua kaler.

7. benda yg mesti ada dalam beg
errr.. jap.. iskk. purse, phone, inhaler, maskara, lip balm, camera.. nampak sikit kan? tapi beg aku slalu penuh. maybe banyak sampah sarap segale resit yg aku malas buang..

8. kali terakhir anda menangis
sumpah x ingat..Aku susah nak nangis..Kalo aku nangis tu maknenye aku betol² sedih, dissapointed, marah,geram..

9. sikap yg buat anda stress
Aku nyampah org buat plan last minute... x suke giler org terhegeh².. Xsuke org yg lembab nak jawab phone.. weh..aku ni x rajin nak sms la. So, kalo aku call, maknenye ade bende penting. Aku benci org selfish.

10. tag 6 rakan anda
err sape aku nak tag ni.. aku xnak tag jura. sbb aku tau taste tag2 yg die suke jawab. ini bukanlah salah satu drpdnya. huhu..ok, aku nak tag:

-Prof
-Aryana Mikezz
-dakRiss
-Capri
-Nami
-Semua la. sape2 yg bace tag ni.. (aku nak letak sume name yg aku kenal. tapi die mintak 6 je kan? So aku wat camni) hahaha..

PERHATIAN: DGN SEGALE HORMATNYE, AKU MENJEMPUT JURA UTK BUAT TAG NI. JURA, KALO KO X BUAT, SIAPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!! (die komplen aku x tag die). wakakkakakaa

Tag Dtg Lagi: 30 Secrets About Yourself

2009-09-05T15:07:00.003+08:00

Aku kene tag ngan Jura..

30 secrets About Yourself. Be honest no matter what..

[One] Who was your last text from?
My sister, Ain.. (asking about what color actually her baju kurung is. Bute ke MOK? tu kuning butter la.. )

[ Two ] Where was your default picture taken?
In my former car..

[ Three ] Are you bored with life at times?
Rarely.. Life is full of exiciting things..

[Four ] Your current status?
Always available. haha..

[ Five ] What is your current mood?
Uh? i cant think.. too much on my mind..

[ Six ] Where do you stay?
Home of course..

[ Seven ] If you could go back in time and change something, would you?
Maybe..

[Eight ] What's your favorite color/s?
I think every color stands out on their own. So, each is my fav..

[ Nine ] Ever had a near death experience?
Not yet..

[ Ten ] Something you do a lot?
going online.. Thinking.. SMS'ing.. gaming..

[Eleven ] Who can you tell ANYTHING to?
I keep REALLY PRIVATE things to myself.. i trust no one.

[ Twelve ] Name someone with the same birthday as you.
uh? Can't remember? Is there anyone that i know of?

[ Thirteen ] If you could have one super power what would it be?
The Jumper.. wish i can go places in the blink of an eye..

[Fourteen ] What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Good looking.. hygiene.. (sorry guys.. shower often pls.. )

[ Fifteen ] Favorite season?
none

[Sixteen ] Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?.
Err.. yeahh..

[ Seventeen ] What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
None.. Puase la..

[ Eighteen ] Do you speak any other language?
Yeah.. QENNISH.. (one that only I, myself understand).. I could speak a little of Cantonese tho'..

[ Nineteen ] Describe your life in one word.
Complicated

[ Twenty ] Do you have any tattoos?
Yeahh.. got it from my chicken pox days.. right on my forehead..

[ Twenty-one ] Who was the last person you hung out with?
Someone I care about..

[Twenty-two ] What are you thinking about right now?
Going home.. break fast.. get some rest..

[ Twenty- three ] What should you be doing?
Entertaining chatters.. haha.. sorry.. ngular jap..

[Twenty-four ] Who was the last person that made you sad/angry?
I don't remember..

[ Twenty-five ] What are you listening to?
I juz downloaded Berikan Aku Cinta by Ungu..So i'm listening to it now..

[Twenty-six ] Do you like working in the yard?
Nope.. Nature and I don't get along well..

[Twenty-seven ] Who is with you?
Baizura THE CEO of MURAKES.. die hasut aku supaye x pose hari ni. Waklusss..

[ Twenty-eight ] Do you act different around the person you like?
Sometimes..

[ Twenty-nine ] What is your natural hair colour?
I dont know.. when i was small.. my hair was brown.. but it got darker thru time..

[Thirty ] Last time you were really happy.
Damn.. I can't remember.. No one cares to make me happy.. I guess i'm juz not that important.. But.. Hell! I don't give a damn. I'll survive anyway..

P/S: aku tag sume org yg belom buat tag ni.. Yg penting.. BE HONEST ok..

Err..Boleh ke aku nak berbangge nih?

2009-09-05T07:26:00.004+08:00

Ngehngeh.. saspen x title? (bek korang ckp saspen.. kalo x, aku libas sorang² ngan sabit).. Err camni.. iskk.. Aku segan la gak.. Tapi dlm mase yg same, aku cam bangge la kan..

Ok².. back to the story.. Err.. hikk. Aku cume nak ckp.. Aku cam bangge la sbb tahun ni aku leh pose direct 2 minggu xde skip sehari pon. Hikhik.. Slalu ade jek setan² bertupengkan manusia mengganggu idup aku. Tapi taun ni, CEO murakes yg 1 sip ngan aku pon berpuase dgn sgt berjaye.. (itu yg die ckp la.. x tau la kalo die ade ponteng tapi xnak bgtau aku).. huahuahua..

Tapi aritu mmg aku dlm kesengalan sgt²... Seb bek la keje ngan Pesal yg memahami.. So, aku ngan die take turn tido.. itu pon aku dok tersengguk² dpn PC.. wakaka. Aku rase mesti Pesal gelak² tgk aku yg kesengalan keamatan.. Tapi.. Ade aku kesah? cak cak cak cak cak cak cak cak..
Maceh eh Pesal sbb kasik aku tido. hohoho..

Tu je aku nk bgtau.. ngeee.. Sile doakan aku berjaye sampai ujung pose eh.. (melainkan ade sebab² yg mewajibkan aku x pose la).. Aminnnnn..

Utk Tatapan Aryana

2009-09-02T15:35:00.006+08:00

Wakaka. Siyes la aku nak gelak weh bace blog ko. Honestly, aku x kisah pon ko x suke masuk blog aku. Sbb aku buat blog bukan dgn harapan ade org bace.

Mcm aku ckp.. Tujuan aku blogging ni utk ingatkan aku 1 hari nanti, ape yg penah aku lalui.Supaye aku x lupe diri. Ko paham la kan kalo nak gune kertas ngan pen, bape buku plak aku nak tuleh.

So terpulang la pade ko nak bace ke xnak. Aku tau aku xreti menulih dan membuatkan 1 cerite tu jadi menarik.Xmcm sesetengah mod² peberet ko. Aku tulih cukup utk aku sorang paham. So, kalo org lain paham, kire aku bertuah la. Patotnye ko x yah edit la yg ko ckp x suke masuk blog aku tu. wakaka. Bior je la pon. Xde sape la nak marah.

Ok, tu je aku nak bgtau. Time kaseh.

P/S: beliau mungkin xkan terjumpe entry ini dgn la sendirinye sbb lembaran ini bukanlah antara pengisi waktu lapang beliau. Pada sape² yg leh sampaikan, sile² la k..

Butet

2009-09-01T09:50:00.003+08:00

Hik.. AKu dpt kucing baru utk gantikan si Bubu yg mmg ilang x balek². Aku kasik name Butet. Sbb pewot die bulat jek. hikhik.. Comey kan? Dah la manje giler.. asik nyondol jek..

What Goes Around, Does Come Around.. INDEED!

2009-08-30T08:32:00.002+08:00

Have u ever thought that whatever u do today, may get back to u in the future? I always thought i'd be the exception. I'm used to get whatever i wanted. I even got what i didn't want, but i had to be wanting it juz because to prove that I too, could own it.

In the way, the feelings of the others were the least of my concern.. thinkin that I could easily get away with anything. Well.. at least, most things.. That's what happens when u grow up being taught to cast whatever comes in the way.. to get to the top. Usually, the feeling of guilt would kick in only for a swift moment. When a new day arises, i'd totally be back in my 'heartless' condition. That's what i WAS.

A recent dilemma had made me realize that things do come back to u. In very,very unique ways. Hell, I didn't think that it'd hit me.. and it hit me hard.. Serves me right! I still gawk at the fact that this time around, it comes back juz the way i did it... with every little details.. The only difference is, it's the other way around. This time, i'm the prey.

I suddenly learn that in life, u won't always have things your way... but if u start giving, u'll always get it back..

Nasi Hujan Panas

2009-08-28T21:39:00.002+08:00

Hikkk.. Menu berbuke aku hari ni.. Sedap wooo.. Nasik Hujan Panas.. MAMACAYANG yg masakkan.. ni sume atas request Jura Murakes.. kalo x, xdenye la aku nak merase. hikk. Xde sape yg rajin layan permintaan aku. Mentang² la aku comot kannnnn. Xpe² rezeki.. Alhamdulillah..

I Deserve Some Respect

2009-08-28T05:44:00.002+08:00

Dah berkali² saye tekankan.. Pls.. Jgn amik gamba² dlm blog utk dihantar ke dlm cenel @15 tu. Blog ni xde kene mengene dgn @15.. All i ask for is some respect.. Dan cerite² dlm blog ni bukanlah utk dihebah² dlm @15 jugak. TQ..

WARGH!!!!

2009-08-28T04:38:00.002+08:00

Apsal bile aku add Nuffnang, tetibe je ade element page aku yg ilang nih?? Bnyk kali dah aku try. nak kate x abeh loading, aku tgk kat bawah tu 'Done'. Sile tulun aku selesaikan masalah nih. Time kaseyyy..

Award & Tag Dari Lillies

2009-08-27T23:55:00.002+08:00

OK.. aku dpt award dari cik Lillies. Pastu aku kene tag 10 org.. Syarat²nye:

1. Kene letak award ni kat blog masing².

2. Bagi award ni kat 10 bloggers yg rapat dgn korang atau sape² je korang rase nak bagi.

3. Memberitahu penerime award ni dgn cara MEMBERI KOMEN di blog mereka.

So, kat sini aku nak tag 10 org plak.. hikk..

1. Prof - cetes jauh yg rapat dgn aku.. :)

2. KKIP - antara cetes yg rapat ngan aku..

3. Kaizar - org yg slalu teman aku makan.. ;p

4. Aryana - salah sorang cetes yg aku feel comfortable with

5. Armani - cetes yg rapat gak ngan aku. Aku suke tgk blog die. Sgt comel. Cam tuan die. (sile jgn pasan)

6. Capri - sbb die rajin melawat blog aku semenjak 2 menjak nih. hik

7. Darini - teman seperjuangan yg slalu kunun² inesen.. aumm..

8. Tom7 - hikhik.. 'adik' aku la kunun².. adik ke??

9. Teha - mod temp yg cumel..

10. Cik Epal - antara cetes yg awal melawat blog aku.. :)

Sebenarnye ramai lagi aku nak tag. Tapi takot kene marah sbb dorang x rajin wat tag. hehe.. So utk org² di atas, sile rajin²kan diri anda ok.. Maceh..

Perginya Seorang Sahabat

2009-08-27T19:54:00.002+08:00

Smlm, Rabu bersamaan 26 Ogos 2009, seorang sahabat telah kembali ke rahmatullah utk mengadap Illahi. Beliau merupakan sorang chatter di @15. Seorang yg dihormati dan disenangi kerana sifat yg suke bergurau.. Kehilangan beliau memberikan kesan yg besar kpd kami. Saya berdoa agar balu beliau tabah utk meneruskan hidup di samping anakanda² tercinta. Semoga roh arwah Ahbie @ Abg Hirtik dicucuri rahmat.. Amin ya rabbal alamin. Al-Fatihah..

Selamat Menyambut Ramadhan Al-Mubarak

2009-08-25T05:18:00.002+08:00

Slamat menyambut Ramadhan Al-Mubarak utk semua. Diam x diam dah hari ke-4 kite berpuase. Semoge Ramadhan kali ni membawe lebih banyak keberkatan.. Aminnn..

Tolong Update Blog Korang..

2009-08-24T05:58:00.002+08:00

Oleh sbb aku dah tuka segale² kat dlm blog ni, sume blog² lain yg aku dah buat list ilang. So, tlg tinggalkan address blog korang kat CHAT WIDGET tu ok.. TQ..

A Beginning Of A New Chapter

2009-08-24T04:07:00.002+08:00

OK.. skang aku x pvtkan blog dah. Sbb aku malas kene login tiap² kali aku nak access blog aku. ehehe.. Tapi aku dah delete postings yg boleh mempertikaikan credibility aku.. and to YOU.. yes YOU!! Tlg jgn judge aku berdasarkan postings aku kat sini. Everything shared in here has nothing to do with me being a moderator. Suke hati aku la aku nak gune ayat camane pon. I don't give a damn of what u may think. What more important is what I THINK. Again.. i'm only human.. born to make mistakes. And i'm willing to learn from those mistakes. Don't think u like me? GET LOST!

Wardrobe Malfunction!

2009-07-27T01:25:00.004+08:00

Wakaka. Oleh sebab hari ni aku sengal + penat sgt².. aku x prasan aku amik stoken sebelah lain, sebelah lain. dlm keta baru pasan.. Tapi kire ok la kan. dua² putih pink. wakakaka..

Malasnyeee..

2009-07-21T21:10:00.002+08:00

Huhu. . ye.. aku sgt malas skang. Mcm² ektibiti aku wat. Tapi aku sgt malas nak update blog. ehehe. Yg aku tau skang aku cam dah gumukkkkk.. So pasni, mari kite berdiet beramai². (dah berbulan kunun aku ckp nak diet tapi x jalan².. Harammmmmmm..)

Hmm..

2009-07-12T17:43:00.004+08:00

Malas nak ckp banyak. Sumpah aku x suke ko. Xkisah la ko bergurau ke ape. Ni last la aku kasik ko chance. Aku bukan x leh terime gurauan. Tapi gurauan ko mcm bangsat. MUNGKIN la aku akan maafkan ko. MUNGKIN.. Tapi, aku mmg xkan lupe weh. Aku peduli ape ko sape. Mungkin selame ni ko tengok aku baik jek, gelak², ko ingat aku x kisah? Waklussss..

Sorry eh. Aku mmg malas nak bercakap ngan ko. Next time, when u're around me, try not to speak to me ever again. Cos i have no intention to have any conversation with u. Aku pon xtau apsal aku leh kenal org cam ko. If u're thinking to start a war again, go ahead and be my @%#*^$& guest. Trust me, u've never seen anything just yet. I might crush ur heart with my words. So stop provoking.

My New Adoptions

2009-07-03T20:49:00.003+08:00

Ngeee.. ni gamba2 Opet yg cube utk meng'escape'kan diri beliau. Susah giler nak grab die ni.. Kalo pegang jek, mesti badan die meliuk2. hukk..

3 minggu lepas, aku adopt lagi sekor sugar glider.. name die NAMI.. huhu.. Nami ni gegurl.. Kecik lagi.. mase aku amik tu, die baru 2 bulan OOP (Out Of Pouch).. Mase mule² amik tu, Opet beriye nak kawan.. Nami je marah² skit. x sampai 10 menet, dah gesel².. hoh! OK, ni aku baru snap pagi tadi gamba² nami.. Die dok bergayut kat tangan aku..

OK..ni plak.. kucing yg U ngan Yott kutip.. huhu.. Aku suke kaler bulu nan mate die. Bulu die ala² kelabu.. tapi ade putih² skit.. Mate die kdg² kale ijo. kdg² turqoise. Tapi die ni ngade giler. Tido nak kat tepi muke org. Kalo xnak layan, nnti die men geget² tinge.. geget² ibu jari kaki. adehh.
Aku x bagi name pon kat die. Tapi adik aku ckp, name die BUBU.. huahuahua..

Walk With Me..

2009-07-01T05:45:00.005+08:00

I'm starting to wonder.. where does this path lead me to? I'm not hesitating to say that my ground is shaking. Send me someone that i can walk with.. No matter how hard it's gonna get. I'm in need of someone who truly cares. Someone who really shares. Someone who's really gonna be there to help me thru.

At times i fall.. At times i make mistakes.. All I'm asking is for someone who understands. Not someone who's being judmental of things that i do. I dont need another someone who keeps accusing without asking.

You wanted me to laugh with you. I did. You wanted me to cry with you. Hell! I did a lot... But you're taking more than giving. You never try to understand. You never asked for my reasons. The saddest thing of all, you NEVER REALLY LISTEN.

They Say 'Ignorance Is Bliss'.. I say 'BULLSHIT!'

2009-06-29T05:26:00.004+08:00

Firstly, aku nak ucapkan time kasih banyak² utk sume bday wishes. Tapi aku xde bnyk nak citer pasal bday aku pon sbb xde ape² yg special yg boleh aku selitkan kat sini. But then again, I'm always being thankful for what i have.. and had...

Well.. back in track.. aku slalu dengar org ckp.. if we tend to ignore what bothers us, we don't really feel the pain. Well.. FUCK OFF.. sape yg ckp tu mmg bodoh la.. I don't like being ignored. Even kalo aku buat salah, u can always ask for explanation. TALKING seems the best solution ever. Xyah nak tunjuk perasaan patahkan kusi meja ke... tumbuk cermin ke.. hancurkan pintu ke ape.. Aku cume penah kenal sorang je yg suke wat perangai haram camtu. Don't make me think that u're no different after all.

P/S: i'm not addressing this to anyone, nor am i comparing someone to anyone. Just a thought that crosses my mind. TQ.

June Babies Birthday Bash!!

2009-06-22T19:30:00.005+08:00

Last Sunday, 20th June, a small barbeque party was held at Mak Long's. It was simply a celebration for everyone who was born in June in the family (so many of us were born in June). Thanx Mak Long (the one in yellow shirt with black flowers on it). Owhhh..we also celbrated Fathers Day. Thanx to Rosman yg contribute those cakes. Sumpah sedap nak mati walaupon x cantik and banyak salah spelling.. I think u should go back to school ;p

happy birthday to:

Mak Long (June 2)
Uncle Ed (June 10)
Ewim (June 11)
Caca (June 14)
Iwan (June 15)
Aunty Fa & Zura (June 18)
Aunty Julie (June 19)
Aswad (June 21)
Aku (June 26)

and sebenarnye ramai lagi. tapi aku kurang kenal sbb sedare jauh. huhu..

Happy Bday Nur Edzrynn Natasha (Caca)

2009-06-14T17:55:00.006+08:00

Happy Bday Caca!! Hikhik. Caca ni anak aunty aku.. merangkap kazen aku. She's 5 now. Aku baru je lepas call die. Ni conversation aku ngan die:

Aku: Hi Ca..

Caca: Akmi! (die agak pelat die nak sebut kak eme tu susah. so die panggil aku Akmi je). Aritu Akmi dtg x tgk pon wambot Caca. Wambot Caca dah kecik.

Aku: (Gelak mcm nak mati.. Aku dengar bapak die pon gelak² kat blakang).

Caca: Hishhh.. Potong la. Sampai shoulder. Wawa pon same (Wawa kakak die)

Aku: Owhh.. ye ke? Ca.. arini bday Caca ke?

Caca: A'ah..

Aku: (Nyanyi) Epy bday to u..

Caca: (Nyampuk) Ehh.. Ehh.. Xpayah.. Tadi kat school dah sing dah..

Aku: (Dlm hati : ampeh budak ni..) Owh dah nyanyi ke? hikhik..

Caca: Akmi nak cake Caca x?

Aku: Nak..

Caca: Tapi dah abis.. (Aku dengar lagi bapak die dok gelak² kat blakang).

Aku: Abis? xpe la.

Caca: Ok bye.. I love u Akmi..

Aku: I love u Ca.. Bye.. (pastu die pass fon kat bapak die)

Sempena bday die, aku nak letak gamba² die dari kecik..

Opet!

2009-06-05T08:31:00.007+08:00

As promised, here are the pics of Opet...

Cage Opet

aku dpt mende alah ni free. So aku kasik kat Opet wat kawan sementara.comel kan? hahaha

Opet intai2 dari dlm sleeping pouch die..

Opet gigit chopstick yg aku gune utk feed die mealworms..

Opet the curious tgk camera

tgk lagi..

Die tgh fikir nak kuar ke x.. Sbb camera tu berbunyi2.

A Pic Tells A 1000 Words..

2009-06-05T05:27:00.003+08:00

Ni gamba aku ngan Dani (anak aunty aku merangkap sepupu aku). Cheeky giler kan? Kecik² dah cheeky.. Aku suh die senyum, die wat muke camtu plak.. Dah besar ensem nih.. tapi.. huhu.. Manje sesangat la plak.. Org baru tinggi sore, muke dah terpisat².

Hari last kitorang bekerje sebagai team mates. Siyes aku rase team ni beh sbb masing² sporting. Aku xkan lupekan pasangan Teman Tapi Mesrew Itewwww.. Really looking fwd to lilit melilit lagi.. (L-R: aku, Snek, Ciputz, Zatt, Dolly, Kacoi)

Aku ngan PROFKUSUT. Sorry x dpt spend time lame² ngan PROF. huhu..Next time, i promise i'll make it up to u..

Pffft!

2009-06-05T01:48:00.004+08:00

Aku x tau nak letak title ape. Sbb sebenornye aku cume nak letak gamba yg kitorang amik tadi. muehehe.. 1st time dlm 2 tawun aku amik gamba ngan artis. Hohoho.. Sorry.. aku mmg x minat sgt bebudak AF. Tapi aku layankan jek. Sbb jura ckp die nak amik gamba masuk blog.. Sile tgk muke kepura2an aku okeyh..

Jura kuntrul...

Zet nak nyelit wat² muke comey kunun².

Jura x reti amik gamba. Aku rase sebab die nebes dpt amik gamba ngan retis. hakhak.. Abeh gegar²..

Gegar lagi.. hoh!!

Guilty As Charged!

2009-06-04T07:28:00.003+08:00

Hmm.. where to begin.. Aku rase bersalah sgt2 skang ni. Aku rase mcm aku org lain. I did something bad. I neglected my family. Bukan aku xnak amik tau. But i'm juz someone who doesn't really show my affection. Hmmm.. Aku tau xlame lagi, mmg aku kene bambu la sbb aku senyap je. Huhu.. whatever happens, i'm still taking the responsibility of facing the music. Mmg salah aku. And.. After this Redang trip, i'll head straight to Ipoh.

No wonder la banyak event family aku terlepas. Dorang malas nak bgtau aku. Sbb dorang ckp aku x kisah pon. Huhu.. Ok, time to make up. Aku ni mcm mushroom gravy kat chicken chop (giler xde kene mengene).. Camne pon dorang marah, dorang mesti cari aku. Ehh.. korang paham x? Huahuahua..

Damn.. I hate assholes so much. But now i'm being one. I wasn't there when they needed me.. When my grandma needed me. I know I'm her anchor. But yet, i chose to stray.. Forgive me for being such a sinner. But i promise to clear things up..

Ooopss! I Did It Again..

2009-06-01T04:22:00.002+08:00

Sorry i haven't really been myself lately. Something else is on my mind. Sorry for each pain i caused. Damn.. i desperately want to get out of this. I need to get out of the mess that i created myself. Camne aku leh stuck camni pon aku x tau. Mungkin sbb keadaan sekeliling kot. Aku bosannnnnn.. Bosannnn sgt ngan sume ni.. Org ckp.. be carefull of what u wish for.. Hell.. i think i juz got served! Tlg la.. Aku nak keluar dari rutin nih.. I'd like to start afresh. Yet, i'm not sure whether i'm capable of doing whatever it takes. I'm not the same person i was.

Chasing and Being Chased?

2009-05-26T21:49:00.007+08:00

Have u ever been in a situation where u are chasing and being chased at the same time? These two have the potential to mess u up like hell, turning ur life upside down, even causing the heartache of a lifetime. It feels like u're running in a circle and hell, u don't even know how to get out of it. It's like being stuck in a love triangle where u can never get out without breaking someone's heart.

Well i'm done with those games where there'll be no winners. Only LOOSERS and FOOLS for trusting and being trusted. I'm done with breaking hearts and getting my heart broken. Done with unkept promises. Done with straying away. Done with wasting tears. Done with uncertainty. I've come to realize that things do happen for reasons, and believe me, those reasons are the best for u..

Kerinduan

2009-05-03T06:13:00.003+08:00

Aku rindu nak mcm dulu². Time budak².. xde banyak problem. xde banyak nak pikir. Kalo kene pikir pon, pasal nak menten grade mase skulah. Huhu.. Xyah pikir nak cari duit bayar utang², bayar bills, bayar PTPTipu, bayar umah sewa, nak suap anak² ayam lagik, anak² kucing lagik, anak² itik.. hishhh.. banyak lagi la anak kalo nak sebut.

Rindu taim skulah² rendah.. Loceng balek bunyi jek, bedesup lari kuor kelas. Gi melawat AhSo yg jual jajan kat luar skulah. Rindu nak main zero point mase rehat (walopon aku x cukop tinggi, tapi aku terer bab lumpat². jgn x caye aku penah masuk lumpat pagor okeyh!). Rindu nak kene panggil ramai² masuk bilik guru beso sbb main spirit of the coin. Rindu nak kene rutan tangan mase kelas music sbb x lukis gambo yg berkaitan ngan lagu (sumpah aku x paham. ape kene mengene belajar lagu ngan lukis gamba? gilerr..).

Rindu nak tipu cekgu sbb x siap homework. So buat² ckp buku ilang. Aku rindu nak juget² atas pentas tiap² kali Hari Penyampaian Hadiah. Rindu nak main jual² sticker...Rindu nak belagak kalo beli kaler pensel baru. Nak² yg kutak 36 btg tu. Rindu nak kene dende mase PJ sbb malas bawak baju PJ. Rindu nak stayback mase korikulum. Rindu nak kutip anak kuceng bawak balek umah. Pastu dgn aku² kene halau dok luar umah (aku penah kutip anak kuceng kat skulah, bawak naik bas sampai umah. Sampai je umah, bapak aku hambat la sbb slalu sgt kutip kuceng).

Rindu nak kene sergah pagi² sbb malas sgt nak bangun gi skulah. Rindu nak nangis² kalo kene pakse mandi pagi². Rindu kat kawan² yg same² selekeh dan comot. Rindu nak dengar cerite² antu dongeng pasal skulah sendiri..

Skulah menengah plak.. Rindu nak bangge² dah masuk skulah menengah.. Rindu kat cekgu kelas form 1 & form 2. Encik Kamarul yg ensem. Die sorang je cekgu laki sesi ptg mase tu. Siyes ensem..Die x suke panggil aku Emelia. Die suke panggil aku Balqish. Sbb die kate kalo panggil Emelia cam perangai bebudak nakal. Kalo panggil Balqish, ade harapan la aku nak bersupan santun. Ampeh. Cekgu² kat skulah slalu noticed aku sbb mulot aku yg tersangat la lancang. mase form 1, cekgu beso dah kenal aku.

Rindu bile weekend gi padang deting. hoh! Kecik² aku dah pandai deting. 1st buipren aku Encik Putra Kamrin Aszran. Aku pon x tau apsal la die bekenan sgt kat aku taim tu. Padahal aku selekeh giler. Die mase tu dah form 3 pon. Diam x diam, 6 tawun gak aku kapel ngan die. Tapi dlm mase yg same, kitorang ade la gak deting² ngan org lain. Bese la. bebudak skulah. mase tu memasing pasan comey la.

Dah masuk form 3.. hah.. Tawun ni banyak woo dugaan. Besela.. Aku baru start nak tunjuk belang. Mase ni dah terserlah sikap panas baran aku. Pantang org berkeras ngan aku, mmg kene pangkah. Mase ni dah terserlah kebijaksanaan aku. Tapi aku pemalas. Aku x suke buat keje remeh temeh.

Aku rindu nak ponteng tuition pastu gi lepak kat padang ngan bebudak skulah mane ntah.. tapi dorang baik. Sungguhpon dorang jaat, dorang x kasik aku wat jaat same. Maybe sbb aku cumel sgt kot utk berbuat jaat. huhuhu.. Aku rindu nak gi kedai magazine, pastu borong magazine Smash hitz la..Top of the pop la. 16 la.. lagi ape ntah..

Masuk form 4. Tawun ni aku mmg hanimunnnn!! Dah start berkawan ngan bebudak kelas bawahan (cewahhh aku kelas sains. Tapi rakan² sekutu aku banyak kelas bawah² skit). Mase ni slalu ponteng skulah. 3 hari seminggu mmg wajib! Waterfall la kitorang.. lepak umah kawan aku la.. Tapi slalunye aku ponteng, aku tido kat umah. Sbb umah aku siang mmg xde org..

Paling best, mase MSSM kat stadium, hari² kitorang bertape kat situ. Mase tu aku kenal lagi sorang bf aku.. Putra gak. Tapi aku x leh bgtau name penuh die. Nnti aku kene serbu ngan wartawan nak kurek citer.. huahuahua.. (cam glemer sgt). Tapi kisah kitorang x panjang. Aku busan betol ngan org² yg slalu jadi tumpuan nih.

Mase form 4 ni up skit.. Dulu kecik² jual sticker.. Skang dah jual poster artis² plak (international je k.. local x layan). hahaha.. Kalo poster centerfold tu.. Mau cecah 10 hengget. Nak² kalo featuring BSB, 'N Sync, 911, Westlife, 98 degrees. hoh!! Siyes aku kaye la mase tu.. Bebudak cine la suke beli.

Tapi dah dekat ujung² tawun, ade konflik skit ngan geng² ponteng aku. Siap gado² cat fight. bertumbuk². Hoh.. seb bek la xde pape.. Yg paling best, sume kene tuka skulah asing². Aku je yg dpt stay kat skulah tu. Apsal? Rahsie.. Tapi lepas tu aku sentiase dlm pemerhatian la. Pantang silap skit, name aku dah ade kat pengawas. Tapi wat bodoh jek. Ape je la yg dorang leh buat pon, paling teruk pon kene panggil je naik ofis. ehehe.

Mase form 5.. aku dah baik. xde ponteng². Full attandance. Tapi lagi 2 hari nak SPM, kitorang sempat lagi skali menipu semate2 nak tgk konsert 98 degrees. Keje paling giler. Alhamdulillah.. SPM aku ok. Cukup utk aku melayakkan aku masuk UiTM..

Masuk UiTM Segamat.. 1st day, mmg paling nyampess. Aku x suke! Sbb kene hantar dok ceruk dunia. Pendek kate, aku susah nak sesuaikan diri ngan budaya baru. Aku cam biase, berlagak sumbung. Kene plak 1 bilik ngan bebudak 1 batch. Walaupun yg lagi 2 org tu lebih tua setahun dari aku. Walaupun aku ni sumbung, dorang tetap baik ngan aku. Dorang jage aku cam adik sendiri.

Aku jadi target dgn senior² sbb aku kerek.. hoh! kerek ke aku? Tapi aku ade backup besar.. Siap ajar aku fly lagi. Muehehe.. So, dorang x leh usik aku sgt. Rindu tiap² kali perhimpunan, name aku mesti naik. pastu tempias die mesti kene kat bebudak bilik aku. Sian dorang..

Tapi lame² aku dah boleh bergaul. Tapi aku tetap degil. Aku still kerek ngan senior². Aku appreciate sgt² bebudak bilik aku.. Dorang baik giler. Ade penah skali tu, tgh final exam. Aku demam. Aku ni jenis x suke study awal². Esoknye ade paper MGT. Dorang sanggup bersengkang mate take turns bacekan utk aku. bile kuar result, aku dpt B+. Dorang paling tinggi pon B-. Huhu.. jahatnye aku..

Bnyk sgt suke duke mase kat UiTM ni.. Rindu sgt ngan semua tu. Rindu sgt kat bebudak sane.. Warghh.. If i could turn back time..

Pieces Don't Fit Anymore

2009-04-19T09:52:00.003+08:00

Aku xde mud utk buat ape² skang. Bnyk kali aku try nak update blog. sepanjang bulan ni banyak ektibiti aku. But my fingers refuse to work.. As if they have a mind of their own. I am totally lost.

Aku mmg slalu lost. Tapi kali ni aku cam x leh nak berpikir langsung. Aku mcm tertanye².. where the hell does these negative aura come from? Kepale otak aku x leh berfungsi langsung. Segale² perkataan yg kuar dari mulot aku mcm dah di setkan ke auto mode. I can't seem to find the right words to say, thus making people start to misjudge me.

Aku down la gak lately ni. Aku mcm xnak buat ape² langung. Rase cam hidup x bermakne je. No, dont get me wrong. It's not that i'm not appreciating life. Cume aku x tau arah tuju aku. I just hope that something good awaits me in the future. I won't be expecting a perfect ending, but I hope it's gonna be a happy one.

Well after all, it has crossed my mind that all these may be the so called karma. U know the 'what goes around, comes around' thing.. Maybe it's a payback for what i did. Just MAYBE. I just wish these feelings will be gone some time soon. I desperately want them to.

I need to lead a better life. At least to have something or someone that i can hold on to. To know that whatever happens, that something or someone will always stick around, no matter what. I know life is full of great things. And i'm thankful that i'm still breathing to achieve those great things. I'm thankful for what i have and even for what i've lost. Cos that is what i'm made of. I dont need luck. Just wish me well...

1st Time Keje Mlm Konsert

2009-04-05T01:54:00.003+08:00

Kakaka.. 1st time aku keje mlm konsert. Hoh! sengal.. Mmg aku x pokes pon konsert kali ni.
Bukan konsert ni je. Tiap² kali konsert pon aku x penah tgk. 1 transformasi pada diri aku. Sbb slalunye, at least aku tgk la gak konsert. AF kali ni, aku mcm x berminat plak. Adakah ini bermakne aku dah bosan? Ntah..

Bermule dgn gimik cekgu pon nak bagi komen, terus kapet penuh. Mule la aku gelak sorang². Ramai la yg melatah dlm kapet. Kecoh punye kecoh, skali yg AFUNDI dah tutop daa.. Bile name students yg mendapat undian terendah diumumkan, mule la kapet dibanjiri.

Ayat² dorang wat aku nak gelak je.

1. Kami org Sabah nda mau undi sudah. kami mau potong astro.
dari tahun bile ntah aku dengar ayat ni.

2. AF dah xde seri. Dah xnak tgk AF.
ni pon tiap² kali konsert, mmg ade la ayat mogok camni. Tapi aku tgk ade je nickname tu tiap minggu dok komen pasal AF.

3. Astro saje je xnak org Sabah jadi juare. Tu sebab dorang outkan org Sabah.
adakah korang ni undi berdasarkan sifat kenegerian? and lagi 1.. Korang ingat undian ni leh buat² eh? dah sah² undian tu dtg sendiri dari pengundi² kat luar. Tlg la jgn anta komen yg boleh menunjukkan ketidakpandaian korang.

4. Wahai org Borneo, pelajar² dari Sabah dah kluar, mari kite undi org Sarawak pulak. MALAYA boleh!!
statement ni sungguh membuat aku merenung panjang. Ramai lagi yg berfikiran kuno camni ek? Aku no komen la.. Sendiri mau ingat.

Apart from those, aku rase cameraman kat dewan tu kurang bijak utk capture point² yg penting. X tau la kalau aku je berperasaan camtu. Ntah shot ape² je die capture. Pakaian students kali ni aku rase ok kot. Cume Qhaud la. Die nyanyi lagu ala² world music gitu, ko kasi la die pakaian sesuai. Ni baju mcm nak gi merempit. Adoi..

Kesabaran Aku Tercabar

2009-04-04T05:10:00.002+08:00

Aku paling menyampah dgn manusia² yg suke bertopeng² nih. Ade aku kaco idup ko? Weh.. Sumpah aku ni bukan org yg penyabar. Level kesabaran aku sgt lah rendah. Sile jgn hapuskan perkataan 'SABAR' tu dlm kamus hidup aku.. Parah nanti.

Aku seorang yg PENDENDAM. Skali ko buat aku, 10 kali aku ingat, 100 kali aku akan balas. SUMPAH aku akan cari DALANG di sebalik citer ni. Watch OUT!!!

Kakaka..

2009-04-01T05:16:00.002+08:00

Aku tgh² sengal kat opis. Tetibe jari rajin plak nak nengok² gamba lame². Skali terbukak la folder dinner @15.. Mule la aku dok gelak sorang² dok terbayang² mase buat tagline 'Kapet Kami, Dunia Kami'.. wakaka. Tidakk. kapet itu bukan dunia aku. huahuahua..

Bandung..

2009-03-29T21:46:00.002+08:00

Weekend lepas aku gi Bandung dgn aunties, cousins, nenek aku n adik aku. A total of 10 people. walopon aku dah banyak kali gi sane.. aku still x jemu kalau dorang ajak gi lagi. Sbb aku suke suasane kat Bandung. Masuk kali ni dah 5 kali aku gi Bandung..

kitorang dok gelak2 pasal dlm bahase indon,

seat belt tu sabuk pengaman. hehe..

Aku ngan cousins aku xde keje..

adik aku 1st time sampai bandung..

dah sampai...

tgh tunggu nak check in hotel..

sebahagian dari group rombongan..

hotel yg kitorang slalu stay..

Kat bandung, mostly kedai2 kat sane are factory outlets.. Yg paling best, mcm2 jenis baju leh jumpe dlm 1 kedai..Kedai2 kat sini die x bersambung2 mcm kedai kat Malaysia.. Kebanyakan sebuah2..

Pasar Baru..

Tempat ni ade 7 tingkat kalo x silap. Tiap2 tingkat jual brg yg berlainan. Mcm2 boleh jumpe kat sini. Telekung, kain ela, baju, kasut, beg.. sume ade. Yg paling best, semua murah. Dah la murah, leh siap tawar lagi..

Shopping..

Hari2 keje kitorang shopping je.. Bangun je lepas breakfast, dah start shopping. Ptg balik hotel jap, pastu kuar balik shopping..

dlm salah 1 factory outlet..

kat depan Rumah Mode.. (Factory Outlet)..

Lagi..

Dlm fitting room pon sempat..

x ingat name tempat ni. Tapi bnyk jual party dresses..

Depan Cascade.. Pagi2 lagi tunggu kedai bukak..

seperti biase.. menggedik tu wajib..

gedik lagi.. bill fon masing2 sampai 3 ratus..

roaming punye pasal..

balik hotel lepas shopping. gile bnyk brg2..

kat Rumah Mode lagi..

kerepek bayam..

Ice cream durian. Siyes aku x leh makan.

Die letak durian atas ice cream vanilla.

pastu letak susu pekat perise coklat..Urghhh..

Makan...

Kat Bandung ni senang skit makan. unlike Bali, most of the locals are Muslims. So nak cari makanan yg halal senang sgt..Bende yg wajib kitorang makan tiap2 kali gi Bandung is Nasik Timbel. Kedai sebelah Terminal Tas. Kat tempat lain sambal die x sedap mcm kat situ.. Kat Malaysia ni ade gak nasik timbel. Tapi name die dah lain. Kat The Curve ade kedai Nasik Timbel. Kalo x silap name kedai tu Waroeng Penyetz..Lagi 1 wajib beli kalau gi Bandung adalah makanan snek dorang. Brownies paling sedap.. Brand Amanda yg the best. Aku slalu beli sampai 4-5 kotak.. Lagi 1, kacang Bandung pon best..

Kedai ni masakan die mcm masakan Malaysia..

Nasik Timbel Ikan

Nasik Timbel Ayam..

Kat Kedai Snek.

Karaoke kat hotel. Yg bestnye, bilik karaoke tu

berkonsepkan bilik tido. So boleh baring2 atas katil..

kat Sane beca bersepah2 tepi jalan..

menggedik jap before balik..

lagi.. hehe..

*holes!

2009-03-18T09:55:00.003+08:00

Sorry kalo entry aku kali ni agak kasar. But as i said before.. ni blog aku. Suke ati aku nak tulis ape. So x yah la nak judge aku and kaitkan job aku ngan entries aku dlm blog ni.

Lately it feels like i've been walking on a path to hell as it is surrounded by assholes. Mane² aku pegi skang, mesti ade je nak cari pasal ngan aku. Aku bukan perfectionist. Tapi aku x suke org push² or amik tau lebih² sgt pasal personal life aku. Aku x kisah kalau bertanye sekadar nak amik berat. But puh-lissssss.. who the hell are u to judge me or tell me what the DOs and DON'Ts? Ko bukan mak bapak aku. Ko bukan bf aku. U're not even my best friend.. (which i don't think i have any). Hasn't it ever even crossed ur mind that it's been only months since u intefered in my life.. Accidentally! Note that. I appreciate ur presence. I really do.. It's just that i'm not comfortable for the fact that u starting to control my life.

X kisah la aku nak kuar ngan sape. Becinte ngan sape. Bekawan ngan sape.. It's none of ur freakin business. Kalau ko betol² sincere nak kawan ngan aku. Ko xkan amik tau sume tu. And to remind u again, i'm not the kind of person who easily opens up to anyone. I prefer to keep things to myself. Yess.. i can be a listener or even a shoulder for u to cry on. But don't expect me to do the same. Sharing every single story of my life with u.

U keep telling me on how ur so called friends come and go. But has it crossed ur mind that everytime it happens, maybe the problem is not THEM.. but it's U. Sebelom ko senang² ckp pasal org lain, why don't u go check on urself first? It's a mere suggestion, but believe me.. it helps! And for ur own sake, stop being such an asshole to those people around u.

Sumpah aku dah bosan nak berlagak baik. So pleaseeeee.. don't test my patience. Aku ade banyak lagi masalah lain yg aku kene pikir. Sorry if i'm being harsh. Tapi sekurang²nye aku jujur. Supaye org lain x benci ko.

(~.~)

2009-02-25T05:22:00.003+08:00

huhu.. aku cume nak bgtau laptop aku x dpt diselamatkan lagi..Dah x leh repair. Cine kedai tu suh aku bli laptop baru je. Sedeynyeeeeeeeeeee.. So aku x leh nak update slalu blog ni. Pastu aku leh update time kat opis je. Aku x leh bace segale2 chat yg korang post kat chat widget tu...Unless kalo aku kat CC.. huhuk.. Xde ke sape² nak bagi aku laptop sebagai adiah besday in advance? hakhak..

A Trip To The Clinic

2009-02-22T11:57:00.002+08:00

Hari ni aku terbangun lmbat.. Nasib baik U call. Aku tgk jam kat enpon dah kul 7.21. Giler ahhh! Camne aku leh x sedar bunyik alarm.. Bangun² je aku rase susah sgt nak benapas. Cam semput la. Bile aku breathe ade wheezing sound. So aku saspek aku semput..

Mase bekpes, aku kuar la makan kat kedai nasik lemak kat Sri Petaling tu. Punye la ramai manusia. Tensen aku.. Pas mkn aku gi klinik.. Mase aku masuk tu xde org. So aku assume kejap je la aku tunggu.. Bile dah dekat 20 menet, mule la aku nak ngamuk. Doctor ni ade ke x?? Bile aku baru je nak bangun tanye minah kat kaunter tu, skali doctor tu panggil aku plak.. Nasib baik aku x sempat ngamuk..

Aku masuk je, aku tgk la.. Doctor tu ala² atok aku la.. Benggali.. umo dlm 70 lebih camtu. Pakai serban. Aku masuk je die senyum.. Pastu die tanye aku.. 'Ye sakit ape?'. Aku ni yg tgh hot sbb kene tunggu lame nak je aku sound. Die dokctor, patot die la cek aku saket ape. Xpon tanye la ape masalah ke ape.. Ni tanye aku sakit ape. Kalo aku tau, bek aku bli ubat je kat pamasi.

Pastu aku ckp la aku batok² dah lame. Tapi 2-3 hari ni makin teruk. Nak benapas pon susah.. Pastu die tgk la kad aku.. Die senyum² die tanye.. 'are u from Perak?'.. Aku pon ckp la aku dari Ipoh.. Walopon aku xde mud nak bersembang. Pastu die ckp lagi.. 'Oh.. i'm from Ipoh too.. Taman Cherry..U know?'. Aku ckp aku tau je walopon aku xtau kat mane la kejadahnye Taman Cherry tu.. tapi doctor tu cam x paham² yg aku xde mud.. die bleh bagi aku instruction plak camne nak gi Taman Cherry tu.. Adeh la.. Kalo sume doctor camni, konpem lame org tunggu kat luar. Kalo yg nak beranak tu agaknye dah terberanak dah..

Pastu doctor tu cek² penapasan aku.. Pastu die ckp.. 'U should stay away from air conditioned rooms for a while'. Damnn.. dah sah² aku keje dlm tempat sejuk. Antartika pon kalah.. Aku angguk je la. Malas nak ckp ape². Pastu die dok pegang lengan aku.. Die ckp.. 'U look like my daughter'. Hah!! ape kejadahnye plak?? Sejak bile muke aku cam benggali ni..? Kot kalo nak kate muke aku cam bintang pilem Latin ke, aku nak gak pecaye. Kakaka... Oleh sebab nak jage ati die, aku senyum je la..

Tetibe die tanye aku.. 'Are u married?'.. Heh!! Soklan ni la wat aku bengang.. Aku pon dlm gelak² yg mmg x ikhlas langsung, aku ckp.. 'No..not yet..' Pastu die tgk kad aku lagi.. pastu die ckp.. 'U should be married by now, or else, it's not gonna be easy to conceive a child.' Aku senyum jek.. Tapi kalo ikot ati aku, nak jek aku suapkan kasut Nike aku yg baru beli yg masih puteh bersih suci murni ni dlm mulot die. Nasib baik la aku pikir susah nak bukak tali kasut bagai. Ko tanye² ni ko nak kasik aku calon laki ke ape?

Pastu tetibe die mintak email aku plak.. haishh telebih peramah plak doctor ni.. Die ckp die nak bagi aku medical/health tips.. So aku leh idup lame mcm die.. MOTIP?? Tapi sbb aku pikir die org tuwe, aku kasik je la.. adoi la.. nasib bek la die x tanye² lagi..Pastu aku terus blah balik opis..

Adoi la.. peramah sungguh doctor tu.. nasib baik die x mintak aku jadi anak angkat die ke ape. Huhu.. Ade gak die citer² pasal tol KESAS la.. itu la.. ini la.. huhu..

P/S: laptop aku masih rosak. So aku x leh bace chat widget tu kalao surf kat opis. Sorry sbb aku x respond.. Aku bz last week. Maybe selase or rabu baru aku leh antar gi repair. Macehh..

Attention..!

2009-02-19T02:28:00.002+08:00

Sorry.. skang ni laptop tgh problem. Lom antar repair lagi. kat opis plak chat widget kene block.. so aku xleh nak respon segale chat² korang.. maybe friday baru aku leh on laptop aku.. Sorry again.. Thanx anyway sbb sudi bace blog yg bangang ni.. ngehngeh..

Gerhana Bulan Penumbra

2009-02-09T06:17:00.002+08:00

ISNIN ini, penduduk di negara ini berpeluang menyaksikan gerhana bulan pada jam 8 malam yang dijangkakan berlaku kira-kira 28 minit. Peluang melihat gerhana bulan di negara ini bukan senang walaupun gerhana bulan boleh dikatakan kerap berlaku.

Gerhana bulan itu yang masih boleh dilihat hanya sekitar 0.0062 peratus dan gerhana bulan penuh dijangka berlaku di negara ini pada 8 September tahun depan.

Kebiasaannya, fenomena gerhana bulan akan berlaku pada fasa bulan penuh apabila bumi berada di antara matahari dan bulan dalam satu garisan yang menyebabkan Bumi langsung tidak menerima cahaya daripada matahari secara terus.

Ketika berada dalam kawasan bayang umbra bumi, ia hanya menerima cahaya secara tidak langsung daripada matahari, sebaliknya cahaya matahari terlebih dulu ditapis dan dibias oleh atmosfera bumi.Jika gerhana bulan penuh berlaku, bulan mungkin kelihatan berwarna coklat gelap atau merah bata atau oren atau kuning, bergantung kepada zarah terampai dalam atmosfera.

Selain itu, gerhana bulan pada malam Isnin ini, turut dilihat di beberapa kawasan iaitu Australia, Pasifik, Amerika Utara dan Asia.Saintis meramalkan fenomena itu akan bermula pada kira-kira jam 5.51 petang.Bahagian paling awal menyaksikan gerhana terbabit ialah tengah Amerika Utara, utara Amerika Tengah, utara Greenland, Artik, timur Asia, Indonesia, Australia, Antartika, utara Lautan Pasifik dan selatan Lautan Pasifik.

Pada saat itu, bulan akan memasuki kawasan penumbra pada Magnitud 0.068, sebelum berada pada fasa umbra kira-kira jam 7.33 malam. Ia akan memasuki fasa seterusnya iaitu puncak gerhana pada jam 8.03 malam dan berakhir kira-kira jam 10.15 malam).

Pada fasa terakhir, gerhana bulan hanya dapat dilihat di bahagian barat Amerika Utara, utara Greenland, Artik, Asia, Indonesia, Australia, sebahagian Antartika, utara Lautan Pasifik, selatan Lautan Pasifik.Disebabkan gerhana ini hanya separuh iaitu sekitar 0.0062 peratus, bulan tidak akan kelihatan gelap sepenuhnya sebagaimana ketika gerhana penuh.

Fenomena ini ternyata menarik minat orang ramai, saintis, ahli astronomi dan pengkaji ilmu falak untuk menyaksikan keajaiban itu. Seperti gerhana matahari, fenomena gerhana bulan turut mempengaruhi perubahan cuaca dan medan magnetik bumi termasuk pasang surut air laut, kejadian ombak besar (tsunami), mencairkan ais di kawasan kutub Utara dan Selatan serta penentuan tarikh permulaan tahun baru bagi kalendar Hijrah.

Bagi umat Islam pula, ia adalah tanda kekuasaan Allah yang diperlihatkan melalui kejadian alam ini yang penuh misteri dan masih banyak belum tersingkap seperti firman-Nya:

“Tidaklah mungkin bagi matahari mendapatkan bulan dan malam pun tidak mendahului siang. Dan masing-masing beredar pada garis peredarannya." - (Surah Yaasin, ayat 40).

"Dialah Allah yang menjadikan matahari bersinar dan bulan bercahaya dan menetapkan manzilah (peredaran) baginya supaya kamu mengetahui bilangan tahun dan pengiraan masa." - (Surah Yunus, ayat 5).

Kejadian gerhana juga menuntut umat Islam menunaikan solat sunat gerhana sebanyak dua rakaat selepas menyaksikan kejadian itu.

Sumber: Berita Harian

Aku Tewas

2009-02-09T05:15:00.002+08:00

Hahaha.. Di saat² aku baru berjinak² ngan HL ni, hari ni aku terkalah.. Sbb tadi aku lapa sgt². Konon² xnak makan. Balik umah terus tido je. Tetibe tadi aku diserang kebuluran yg kronik. Tanpa berlengah² aku memecut ke Ajimal. Aku telah berjaye menghabiskan sepinggan megi gureng dan telo mate dgn begitu cemerlang sekali. Tapi aku sikit pon x menyesal. Hehe.. Xpe.. esok aku akan pastikan perkare yg same xkan berulang. Masyehhh..